I kind of have this thing where I love Leap Year. 

It always reminds me that life can tend to be messy, hectic and not go your way. And sometimes you need to just close your eyes, spin until you land in a direction and leap. I personally think that jumping not just into situations that scare you but doing things that make you think this is crazy is what really makes you get to know yourself better. Challenge yourself, reward yourself, trust yourself. Sure, maybe the path you picked will lead you into a dead end. Maybe it'll test you. Maybe it will be the best thing that's ever happened to you.

So what am I leaping for this year?

I've already made the switch to another school that honestly sort of scares me because of how focused it is on art and how serious it is about making your dreams come true. It's a little intimidating! Other than that, diving head first back into my business as well as into my blogs and working on content for my channels. But those are things I would had done regardless. 

So what is something I'm going to take blind faith in? What scares me?

And it is something I'm going to have to deal with some time this year and yes it does scare me no matter how many times people say I'll be fine. Still, never traveling by yourself then having to... it's scary. Especially when it's across the country with a lay over. I hate lay over's as it is!

Which I know is something that is already in the works (okay, crazy that all of these things are happening this year and I wasn't even aware it was a Leap Year until like a week or two ago) but it's still scary because you're leaving your "comfort zone" or your "comfort person" rather. 

And before I go, I just want to mention that today marks Flixie's 8th death anniversary (I think it's 8th) and I still miss him so much every time my anxiety gets really really bad. So I hope you're doing well, wherever you are and I'm still thinking of you fuzzy butt.

Happy Holidays!

I know I'm slacking hardcore in the blog updating department but that doesn't mean I haven't been planning! And now with my brand new camera, I feel like I can take on the world! No, seriously. I know right? Must be some serious stuff a camera can influence like that!

I hope you are all having an amazing day filled with loved ones, laughter, and really good food. As for me I'm alone today and I was planning a date with Netflix and pizza but I skipped on the Netflix because I was enjoying the quiet too much. I still plan on binge watching a few movies before they take them off though! Also binge reading a few books I'll be listing on Readarella later that I hope to finish before the year ends.... it's looking questionable though haha.

So it's Christmas. And it's Thursday so... I thought I'd throw it back to 1997.

Can you find me? I was... 12 when we did this routine. I could probably still do it in my sleep if I thought hard enough. But this was the very first color guard performance I ever did. I miss being in guard and in band so much, it was like being part of a family, literally. We'd yell at each other but come back and say sorry later. It was nothing but love. I loved being on stage, it was like pretending to be someone else. Someone more confident than the shy little girl I was back then. 

I still can't do a horizontal. I mean I can, with gift wrap but not with a flag. Saber, yes. Rifle, yes. Flag, hell to the no. I have no idea why. I always think it's going to hit me or something... I can't explain it. Though I felt that way with a Saber but I do just fine. It's actually more terrifying with a Saber. A Rifle isn't so bad because it's weighted. 

I hope you all enjoy my throwback, because I've watched it about 5 times now. It's so crazy to find this on YouTube and realize THATS YOU haha.