Showing posts with label 2023. Show all posts
Showing posts with label 2023. Show all posts
2023 was a lot like 2022 -- full of shit.
I got into drama with the same people and the same shit happened. It was like the same damn repeat. Throw in giving birth, postpartum, Tums moving out, almost dying -- literally, and being dragged down a hallway by someone you spent your whole life saying was the most important person in your life.
I was angry, a lot.
And the girls deserve a mom who isn't always angry. Who isn't always in a bad mood. And it's crazy how we allow one person to have that much power to make us angry. It shouldn't be that way. Just like you shouldn't put your happiness in someone else's hands, you shouldn't put any mf emotions in another mf's hands. They're not you. They're not living YOUR life. They don't have to endure you and your mind and your life every single day. But you do. Your emotions should always be yours to control.
A lot more bad happened than good and it was awful kind of bad.
I have been super slacking on updating this blog! I keep telling myself I'll re-brand it but I just don't know exactly what I'm doing at the moment... so until I do, I'll just keep winging it I guess lol.
2022 was a mess of things. Like a huge mess of things and while I don't have faith that 2023 will be any better or easier; the most I can do is hope I go in a direction that will bring me some kind of contentment.
I don't have any resolutions for 2023, I didn't have time or energy or the mind space to come up with any. And I think I'm okay with that, for once. Whatever happens, happens. Whatever comes, comes. Whatever goes, goes.
I did however come up with a #onelittleword because.. well, I kinda have to. It helps me keep myself accountable and helps me to focus on the area's in my life and in myself that still need work.
With that said, my word for 2023;
★゜・。π±πΎππ½π³π°ππΈπ΄π 。・゜☆
Over the last few years (basically since Tums was born) I've learned the importance of boundaries and wondered how the hell did I go that long without having any solid ones. Then wondered why people treated me the way they did.
I have a habit of trying to always keep the peace with others, and while that's fine... mostly, it's not fine if it takes a toll on my mental health.
I'm refusing to do anything or put myself in a position where it may compromise my mental health and mental stability. Because at the end of the day, how I take care of myself and how I feel matters. I have kids who need a stable mom in order to care for them. That's no one else's responsibility but mine to make sure I provide that for them.
I do hope to re-brand this blog this year and turn it back into a place I had fun posting. In the meantime, I do run other blogs;
Mental Health & Gaming: pixiedustwords.com
Foodie: herloveforfood.co
Gaming: gamearella.com
Small Biz: pixiepinayco.com/blog
Stalkers welcome. Give me them page views lol.
What are some of your goals for 2023? Or your word if you picked one?
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