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Showing posts with label hello. Show all posts
Hellooooooooo July.
Hello passing the half way mark of 2025.
I would say I'm either excited or not excited but I'm sure the next 4 years are going to be a shit show anyway. I don't typically celebrate 4th of July since as someone who's spent most of their working life in theme parks, we all know we weren't going to get 4th of July off. It was never my favorite time of the year as a child either; the heat, my parents yelling in addition to that and me being blamed for something that went wrong that day? Nah, pass.
I'll stay home in peace and quiet and not be blamed for shit from anyone instead.
Childhood trauma runs hard. The more I uncover, the more... angry I get at how I was raised. How unfair it all was and how much it damaged me. Sadly being self aware doesn't magically fix it. Although, I wish it did sometimes.
Anyway.
If you want to know my goals for this month, hop on over to my new substack because Google ads are being freakin weird and with as many page views as I get on this blog, I should be getting paid for it. I update there pretty regularly and a lot more... unfiltered, unplanned, unhinged and 104% me.
I hope you all had a safe 4th of July, if you celebrate it.
We are now five months into 2025, where has the time gone? But also, what is taking Fall so long to get here?!
I am thankfully feeling less sick, the maintenance needed to keep me feeling normal sucks. But it is what it is and I don't think fixing this earlier would had made much of a difference, it was going to catch up to me sooner or later. I write it off as part of getting older. It has forced me to focus my life in places that should had taken priority the last few years, and didn't.
I have also been back on working on my usual hustle, it's much more challenging this time around for sure... mostly because the excitement of starting has faded, obviously, and because I now have 2 kids instead of 1 to keep track of while working... or struggling to work.
While it can be challenging, it is also very rewarding.
May Goals;
| Prep for May The Fourth
May The Fourth is something me and my husband celebrate every year since we got together in 2016. Sometimes we go all out and other times we just spend the day watching Star Wars movies and eating pizza. Now with 2 kiddos, we tend to go all out. I do appreciate that he takes this day seriously for me since I've had some horrible memories associated with it in the past.
But it's a day I look forward to every year.
| Add 4 new products to each shop
I have a habit of working on things and just... never posting them lol. I know that makes zero sense, and honestly I can't figure out why I do this either, but I do and I need to stop. I miss the days I would just post/go for it and not even think twice. It's like the perfection of things matters when it really shouldn't.
People won't find you if you don't make yourself known.
| Work on getting Shopify up & running
Me and Shopify have a very long and complicated relationship. There is so much flexibility with Shopify and so much more control over your business... but you're on your own to market without the help of Etsy's search bar. And because there is so much more freedom with how you design your Shopify shop, it can get overwhelming really fast.
However, at this point, I'd like to have that freedom and flexibility.
| Write. More. Gaming. Posts
Again with the taking content and not posting lol. I demo and play a lot of games, especially ones that are in Early Release with the intention of making content and writing about it. It's just... the posting I struggle with lol! A recent trauma has played a part in that for sure, but I'm trying to push passed it.
I started writing for me, and I started long before I met people who discouraged and put me down about it. I started long before they could even learn to type. My audience does not include them, so why let something so small and insignificant stop me from doing something I love?
People who hate on you for your hobbies and interests when they could never even understand what you do is diabolical and says more about their own lack of hobbies and interests than it does about yours. Creators and creatives don't sit around and bash other creatives, that's what sets us apart from the rest.
| Purge kids outgrown clothes
My husband found some newborn clothes mixed into our stuff. Not sure how or why they were there, but they were and it made us wonder what else is lurking in the clothing piles lol. I know I have some of Tums older stuff in one of my hampers from the last place, so I plan on going through that this month and purging the stuff that doesn't fit me or the girls anymore.
At 40, I feel the need to purge different areas of my space and my life. I think every 10 to 20 years it's good to take a look at your life and see how far you've come, where you want to go and who you want to be and adjust accordingly.
I miss doing the things I use to do effortlessly, like reading and blogging. Taking amazing product shots and working with companies. However I want to add create my own company to the list of things I've done and accomplished as well. And while my main shop has been down for some years now, I'm not done with it just yet.
So here's to a productive May and achieving the goals I set out for myself at 40.
I lost this blog & domain for a few months. I lost access to the Instagram account a while back and so I have to start over a new one. There goes 13 years of hard work just gone, because people can't seem to stfu and mind their damn business.
I figured hazearella needed a rebrand since I turned 40 this year and I pretty much started this blog about 10 years ago. A lot has changed in the last 10 years. More than I would had ever expected.
I'm not a huge fan of the blogger platform like I use to be and so I made another blog on wordpress, along with a new Instagram name. When it's all set and ready, I'll be adding the link to either this post or making a whole different post for it.
For now, welcome back to hazearella :)
I have been super slacking on updating this blog! I keep telling myself I'll re-brand it but I just don't know exactly what I'm doing at the moment... so until I do, I'll just keep winging it I guess lol.
2022 was a mess of things. Like a huge mess of things and while I don't have faith that 2023 will be any better or easier; the most I can do is hope I go in a direction that will bring me some kind of contentment.
I don't have any resolutions for 2023, I didn't have time or energy or the mind space to come up with any. And I think I'm okay with that, for once. Whatever happens, happens. Whatever comes, comes. Whatever goes, goes.
I did however come up with a #onelittleword because.. well, I kinda have to. It helps me keep myself accountable and helps me to focus on the area's in my life and in myself that still need work.
With that said, my word for 2023;
★゜・。𝙱𝙾𝚄𝙽𝙳𝙰𝚁𝙸𝙴𝚂 。・゜☆
Over the last few years (basically since Tums was born) I've learned the importance of boundaries and wondered how the hell did I go that long without having any solid ones. Then wondered why people treated me the way they did.
I have a habit of trying to always keep the peace with others, and while that's fine... mostly, it's not fine if it takes a toll on my mental health.
I'm refusing to do anything or put myself in a position where it may compromise my mental health and mental stability. Because at the end of the day, how I take care of myself and how I feel matters. I have kids who need a stable mom in order to care for them. That's no one else's responsibility but mine to make sure I provide that for them.
I do hope to re-brand this blog this year and turn it back into a place I had fun posting. In the meantime, I do run other blogs;
Mental Health & Gaming: pixiedustwords.com
Foodie: herloveforfood.co
Gaming: gamearella.com
Small Biz: pixiepinayco.com/blog
Stalkers welcome. Give me them page views lol.
What are some of your goals for 2023? Or your word if you picked one?
Wow, I thought I had posted this here... but I guess I didn't. Whoops. That's a first of missing it.
2021 was better than 2020 for sure.
I got to see my BFF and spend my birthday with her at Disney World after not seeing her for 15 years. I also got to see my girl Alexis and it was our 10 year anniversary since our Disney College Program. It was so nice to see them both. I also got to go back in November for Christmas time stuff as well as hit Universal Studios where I met up with my friend Angely. She's so fun to be around! I'm glad I was able to see her!
The end of 2021 was unexpected for lack of better word. I opened up my shop and it did really well the first and second month. I mean it did pretty well all the rest of the year but the sales I made exceeded what I thought would happen. I'm thankful for the sales and the learning process that it took to launch my shop. It's been fun learning... well... everything. And having another outlet to express myself.
I got to spend more time with my Kuya Dru despite his crazy work schedule. Me and this dude have a crazy friendship history that spans all the way back to when we were 14 and freshmen in high school. I'm absolutely thankful for all these years of friendship (23 years of having to deal with my bullshit... and it's been a lot of bullshit) and having his guidance and company.
This year I want to focus more on balance.
Which is something I've struggled with especially since giving birth. I'm thankful for the ways I learned how to create balance between being a mother to a very active toddler and balancing a whole ass business. I lost a lot of sleep... but it was def worth it.
I want to focus more on balancing the things I want out of life and making them happen. 2021 showed me I'm capable of the things I know I'm capable of... I just have to want it and manifest it and keep my vision clear and unclouded -- that's the hard part.
Here's to 2022 and working more on myself and creating the life I want.
Did you pick a word for 2022? I'd love to know if you did in the comments below!
Oh wow, it's March already?
Anyone else feel like Feb was both the longest and shortest month? It's kinda weird. A lot happened in Feb which is probably what made it feel so long for me. Thankfully we're one step closer to summer. After that weird random snow storm here in Texas I'm MORE than ready for hot humid weather. Or well, as humid as Texas can get, I guess.
The next couple months are going to (hopefully) be exciting (if nothing gets prematurely cancelled). And I really really need a break from chores, life and the mundane.
I'm also convinced that Texas pissed off someone somewhere because all this bad juju coming to TX is not it. First the snow storm, then people losing power FOR DAYS and clean water. Then now this; them lifting the mandatory mask and now allowing businesses to operate at 100%. Like really? Some people are still trying to recover from the dang snow storm but sure, I guess this is more important. What makes it worse is that TX barely took it seriously to begin with. The amount of Texans I know who GOT covid is unreal. Seriously.
AINT SHIT TO DO OUT HERE, STAY HOME. Dang.
Lemme get into my goals before I go on a full blown rant lol;
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I know this post is a bit late this year but I got caught up in a few other things I'll talk about later!
This is my 5th? 6th? I don't remember; doing OneLittleWord. I always look forward to the New Year to pick a new word. What do I want my intentions to be for the year ahead?
My word for 2020 was Wellness and I think I did a pretty good job letting that word be the focus of most things, though I'm not that lucky every year. So what was a word that was possible to implement into my life?
My mental health was pretty up and down in 2020 which is fine, but I noticed I was afraid of things I had kicked fears of before and that was not okay. I'm trying to take steps forward, not back. I learned a lot about boundaries and saying no. There were also a lot of things I had put off in 2020 that I really wanted to do, but just didn't have the energy to.
I know I'm not the only one who can't believe it's already August so I'm not even gonna say it! But what I will say is: I can't believe this pandemic has been going on for about 4-5 months in the US now and we're still nowhere near getting better. If anything we're getting worse and that's insane. But then I run my weekly errands and I see WHY we're getting worse.
Everything is bigger in Texas.
Even the bullshit.
For the first time in ever I managed to wait until the end of July to start Fall. I usually start mid July but I really want to get the Spring/Summer content I missed out on out of the way before I go on full Fall mode. I know it doesn't matter in reality but I just like things to be in chronological order. So let's hope I get all of that other stuff up before August is over, yeah?
It's mostly for me and my archive purposes tbh.
Things I hope to get done in August;
Why yes, this was meant to be a monthly goals post but uh, I tend to talk too much. I wish there was a check list option for bullet points. Come on Blogspot it's 2020!
If you've been here awhile you know how I'm all about creating new weekly update things. So I'm going to try to start posting every week on certain days. Just to get myself back in the routine of posting and writing again.
It's been awhile, huh? I can't tell you why I've been away cause I honestly don't know. Motherhood has taken a lot of my time and brain space. And for some reason lock down has made me lose track of days and time. It's been weird ya'll.
I sort of want to change the direction of this blog; or rather, change it back. This started as a lifestyle blog for me. A place for me to share my loves, my life and anything and everything in-between without feeling like I had to fit one certain niche. And somewhere along the way I ended up doing just that. My IG is filled with product shots and talks about makeup and candles which is fine. I love makeup and candles but I also want to start including more of me here. And I feel like I say that a lot.
What I won't be including however is things about mental health; I have a different blog for that. And I won't be diving too much into motherhood because I also have a different blog for that. But I will try my best to talk about Tums more.
Is it Spring yet?
I mean I'm sneezing like crazy like it's Spring. It's not 11* every night anymore (thank goodness) and all the pinks and reds of Valentine's Day is definitely coming together.
I'm pretty excited for this time of year! I love Spring and despite my past depressing Valentine's Day's and Easter's they're still some of my favorite holidays. It's hard to be upset when the weather can be damn near perfect and there's so many happy and pretty colors everywhere!
I don't have that many goals to complete this month as I already feel overwhelmed as it is with all the goals I'm trying to complete on a week to week basis; I think I'm going to cut some down and try to pace myself instead of trying to "make up for lost time" because then I just get stressed and I push things off even further which in turn ends up just depressing me.
So here are some things I do hope to accomplish this month;
⇢ Read 3 books (to stay on track with my Goodreads goal)
⇢ Film/write reviews for the 2 books I finished in December
⇢ Post some sort of blog entry from now until Valentine's Day
⇢ Prep posts/videos for Easter and Spring
⇢ Attempt to cook ONE new thing
⇢ Catch up on animes
⇢ Start watching a new TV show
⇢ Organize clothes and bins
⇢ Organize closet
⇢ Organize bookshelf
February isn't a very long month either so, whomp! Hopefully my shorter list will inspire me to attempt to get more things done this month, we'll see!
What are some things you're looking forward to this month?
Christmas time definitely has me a lot to be excited about --- there's just something so magical in the air during this time. All the lights, Peppermint and Gingerbread flavored everything, all the colors, all the cute holiday gift sets to view in the stores, all the decorations put up everywhere!
I was hoping to be a little bit more prepared for Vlog and Blogmas this year and yet I wasn't, I'm SLIGHTLY disappointed in myself but not by too much. I just don't really like scrambling to figure out content for THAT EXACT DAY. I use to be so much better/more organized when it came to blogging. Whatever did happen to those days?!
I've been adjusting to the cold weather here in Texas; I've grown so use to 90* year round weather from living in Florida for the last years that adjusting to a cold winter again after that long is a pretty hard transition! It was snowing in Austin a few nights ago but so far no snow here in DFW! Sucks! I'm waiting on it! It snowed last year, the weekend AFTER I went home. Other than that the fact I've had a cold since October that seems to never be going away and just increasing and decreasing has been rather annoying. So I've been coughing my nights away and feeling drained during the day.
Still, I won't let it stop me from enjoying as much of a real winter and a real Christmas as much as I can!
I still have yet to decide to bake anything this holiday season and while I've filled up my Pinterest boards with loads of idea's I haven't still decided on one particular one to try out just yet. I mean I've decided on one, so hopefully next week I'll get to attempt it!
I've also got to do something about my kitchen set up because I still have the Halloween runner on the table and that's just gotta go! It's just getting all the bits and bobs off that table (that shouldn't even be there to begin with) that's part of the problem. Ugh.
I've decided go cut down on the things I have going into 2018 because it's just all starting to drive me nuts, then again I say this pretty much twice a year. So we'll see how that goes. But I'm really hoping to tidy up my place a lot more before Christmas and New Year's gets here! Having a dizzy cat who tacks cat litter everywhere certainly doesn't help but I need to see what I can find to help her keep that litter off her tiny little paws.
There's not very many adventures planned this month sadly like there was last year but it's okay, adjusting to this weather and to other things are a little bit more important to me at the moment and I'll make up for it next winter when I hope to be more prepared for 40* - 30* days! Thankfully my mom sent me some cute winter clothes she had found and Bubba got me some fleece pj's I had wanted from Target yesterday when he went to grab me some stuff. And he also got me this really cute Grumpy Care Bears fleece poncho with a hood! I'm pretty obsessed with it already! I just threw it in the wash so I don't have pictures.
Speaking of, I need to make it into a habit of taking more photos with my actual cameras and less with my phone (which I've also been saying for years...) just because the iPhone photo quality is starting to bother me a bit. Sometimes it's really nice and clear and other times it's blurry af. I don't know why that is but sometimes it just is. So yeah, I need to make it a point to start using my actual camera.
I'm 18 books behind on my goal of reading 36 books this month, whomp. I highly doubt I'll be able to catch that up by much but I could try. I borrowed some shorter Middle Grade books from the library from a series I wasn't aware was still being made and Bubba let me open one of the Middle Grade books he got me for Christmas called The Magic Misfits by Neil Patrick Harris so those are definitely going to go on my TBR pile for this month.
What are some of your plans this month?
This entry is a few days later than I had planned for it to be up, and even now I haven't really spent much time thinking about what I'm actually trying to say lol so we're gonna wing it!
My anxiety has been on and off kicking my ass lately, some days it's not as bad as others and other days I just don't want to do anything but curl into a ball. I want to attempt to challenge myself this month. I read that the only way to ease anxiety such as OCD is to practice something I absolutely hate and scares the crap outta me --- exposure therapy. Though not at very high extreme's.
At the moment my apartment is damn near done with everything being unpacked, I just have to wash a few more blankets and find a home for certain things, then my whole living room needs to me mopped so I can stop wearing shoes inside my apartment and walk around in slippers like I've always wanted to. I personally hate wearing my shoes in my apartment but I didn't figure that there was a reason to go through a shit ton of cleaning if moving in, building stuff and all that wasn't even done yet. But now that all of that is, I don't have an excuse as to why I haven't mopped besides that I have 3 boxes left to be sorted though.
So one of my goals this month is to finish unpacking those 3 boxes and mop my floor.
October is very very close from now and I normally make an October/Halloween reading challenge list. I somewhat failed that last year so I'm hoping to do better this year. Along with that I want to be better at bookstagramming and being more active on my bookish social media accounts because I do really miss that world.
I have a few creative goals I'm hoping to start this Fall as well; all in all I have high hopes that my restart will begin. Now.
- Tidy and mop the apartment
- Read 4 books in preparation for October
- Pactice bookstagramming and flat lays
- Research social media tips
- Practice mindfulness
- Organize emails
- Play with makeup more
- Get 2 of Axelyn's main classes to 50
- Make 1 candle
- Learn to duel (as Bubba's request)
There are other things like find a job in my field which is going to take some time. But I would like to get a jump start on everything I moved here to do and accomplish.
My anxiety has a tendency to make me not want to move or make me afraid of certain things and I'm tired of being afraid. I try to push myself out of those moments as much as I can but sometimes I just feel like I can't. When in reality I need to push harder. I need to stop thinking things are so hard cause yeah maybe they are. Maybe they're beyond my current strength. But how can I get stronger or be better if I don't try?
I need to learn how to have more faith in myself. To trust myself more. I use to think I was this amazing person who could accomplish everything and then anxiety came around and I lost that mindset. I need to find it, work on it and bring it back. Because if you're not hyped about your own projects and idea's how can you expect anyone else to be?
Here's to a productive month full of adventures, new favorites and starting new goals.
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