Showing posts with label holidays. Show all posts
Showing posts with label holidays. Show all posts
It's now mid December and this post is late. December is always a crazy month for content creators, I've always had trouble juggling blogmas, vlogmas, reading, reviewing and trying new eats. Add in being a parent to very active kiddos and running several businesses... yeah it can be a lot lol. But I love what I do, which is why I've been doing it for over 20 years now, happily.
November wasn't as cozy as it could had been, but it was full of things that caught me by surprise and brought joys through out the month.
I finally got to upgrade my gaming pc with a cute white one that fits on my desk -- the baby just loves to turn off my pc because the power button lights up while I'm gaming, streaming or working so I figured I needed to get something she can't freely reach. Plus it fits the theme I'm aiming for. It currently has a bunch of matching holiday decor on top that makes it feel just that much more cozy. I love this thing, it can run Infinity Nikki and has so much more storage than my previous gaming pc.
I also treated myself to a Switch 2 even though I said I wouldn't until the update for Animal Crossing comes out in January but the chance came up to grab one so I did, I deserve it! Working on your shit pays off, and the ability to get myself these two upgrades makes me feel so much more accomplished lol.
It's been a productive month of blind boxes.
I found some Sanrio ones I was searching for in Plano and had to get them all. Or rather, two or three of each. The Tamagotchi Sanrio one on the top right I had to buy another 3 of because my kiddos stole my other haul of them. These are so cute they light up and they make really cute bag charms. I definitely need to get more! The Pochacco on the bottom right had to be straight up hidden because they would fight over him. So he's hiding on my bookshelf in my room right now lol. I haven't opened the others yet, I'm debating if I want to do unboxing blind box reels.
I blame working at Disney World and at D-Street when blind box Vinylmations was a huge thing. Ah, I miss those days and I miss working there. It was so much fun!
I do love my girls share the excitement and love of blind boxes and aren't sore losers about getting doubles. I just wish they wouldn't lose them lol!
November was full of Wicked stuff naturally.
Ironically my 6yo was the one who was trying to convince me to go watch it. Act II isn't my favorite. I only like the first part with No Good Deed but everything else having to do with The Wizard I could care less for. Oh, and I want to see the slap happen.
It did hit a point where I was like how much Wicked stuff is TOO MUCH Wicked stuff? The 6yo picked up Wicked bath bombs and all the Glinda bubble bar from LUSH since it doubles as a bubble wand which is pretty cool. I picked up the skincare stuff which smells amazing. I hate how most of these collections at LUSH are super limited edition. I still have the Elphaba glitter broom bath bomb from the collection last year sitting on my shelf and I refuse to use it.
Compartes would do a Wicked collab. They even have an advent calendar on their website. I found these chocolate bars at World Market. There were several others but these were the flavors I was most drawn to. I'll probably put up reviews or a taste test reel up on my foodie blog.
I haven't had an urge to get on social media all year and tbh, my nervous system has been just a bit more settled since. As someone who's been on social media and doing social media since 1999 and been on Instagram since it was iOS only in 2011, I am burnt out ya'll lol. I love sharing photos and things but on Instagram isn't it anymore for me. Plus with the rise of them just randomly deleting accounts? Yeah, nah. I'm not putting all that time and energy into something I can't control anymore. I've debated on going old school and getting back on Flickr lol. There's Behance but it's only for those with an Adobe Creative Cloud membership -- which isn't such a bad idea at this point. I have always hated the idea of TikTok, I don't know why. Maybe because I'm a Vine-er forever and TikTok is just a bootleg version of Vine lol.
I did find that studies show that being on TikTok does throw your nervous system, if I find the article again I'll come back and link it here.
Like I mentioned, my gaming pc can now run Infinity Nikki.
I have so many thoughts about this game. I mean, it's a gatcha game so I mean, what could go wrong? My bank account says a lot lol. The fact you have to gatcha 2-3 of each outfit in order to upgrade it is nuts but so so addicting. And tbh I've been overly obsessed with gatcha games since the days of Neopets and GoGaia. Which weren't even games exactly, they were just websites that took your money lmao!
This game is beautiful and the game play itself is wonderfully done. There's SO much to do for a game that is focused on fashion quests and style off's. It's perfect for people like me who love to gather, craft and hunt for resources. The downside is that you cap your insights daily and they're time gated. So something takes weeks to get sometimes. Patience isn't my thing lmao.
I enjoyed the whole story line with Giovanni and completing the Itzland quests. That whole section was really heartwarming.
I still have my eyes on this Oregon Trail ornament because how freakin cute?! If you were a 90's kid and played this on those pc's that only operated in black and green, you know how this tugs at your memories lol! I played it for awhile on my Switch and as an adult, it's much more stressful lmao. But hey, no one's died yet.
Speaking of Switch, I'm so against buying Switch 2 games. I mean $70 a game? In this economy? Ya'll are trippin. I'm thankful that most Switch games come with a free Switch 2 upgrade. I was recently gifted Paper Mario and I'm so excited to play this one! I've wanted it since it was released.
My 6yo has the same habit as her dad when gaming: she looks at me in game when she's talking to me. I don't remember what we were talking about other than her demanding I get in the car in Roblox. Our Roblox game play is so random and chaotic lol. However she always comes up with the cutest looks and outfits.
November was of course spent decorating for Christmas! This year I went full on glitter. Nutcrackers are a thing I collect and this gold glitter one from Target has been one of my favorite new decor item's I've picked up this year.
Picked up a few of my favorite holiday snacks: I do miss when the Linzer Raspberry cookies had powered sugar on top of them, wonder why they stopped doing that. The Holiday Cookie Collection has been one of my favs since I was a kid but it was the asian market version. Same thing lol! The cookie sprinkled with coconut shavings is my favvvvv... so good.
I introduced the girls to the Terry's chocolate orange and I regret it lmao. In the month of Nov I bought maybe 4 of these because they kept jacking mine and eating it all. Ugh lol. My dad introduced these to me as a kid. I thought the concept of smacking it was so funny and now my kids do the same.
Overall, November gave me a lot to be thankful for -- even if I didn't get to take my annual Disney World trip this year. I was surrounded by other little joys and things that helped calmed my nervous system as well as things I really needed to upgrade for the sake of my businesses so I can't really complain.
I'm lucky to be able to have and do the things I do, annually my kids take Disney World trips twice a year and that's way more than I got to take at their age, so I'm truly thankful to be able to gift my kids with those memories and experiences as they grow.
Now to work our way through December and all the challenges that come with the holidays, time management and everything else.
I hope you all are staying warm and cozy this season!
It's November.
November.
Meaning the year is pretty much over. That is insane. I hate how the holidays are so close together, like there's all this time to prep for Halloween but then it comes to Thanksgiving then Christmas. So when exactly is the window of time to prep for Christmas?!
I normally start Nov 1st, but with the girls more aware of time, we don't want to confuse them. We have made some moves towards prepping for Christmas but we also still have a long way to go. Hell this post is way later than it usually is.
I would say that I'm not going to pack my November with an insane amount of goals, but it's November, let's be real. My November's are usually crazy.
Plus, it's Wicked movie month and this family has already gotten their Wicked wardrobe's together thanks to Bubba. Literally so excited.
| Christmas prep
Obviously. This includes the girl's room and all the TV stands. I really want to get Nutcrackers at the door, but with these kids? Not possible. Sadly. I do plan on having fairy lights literally all over the place. The ones with timers cause fuck electric bills in Texas with its clueless weather. Plus with daylight saving being what it is, and how it takes me forever to adjust to it, I figure this would be a fun way to do that.
Bubba lined the under part of the counter with an LED strip that we keep on at night, it's super pretty.
| Find something to bake
I really want to attempt macarons but that's going to take some time. And maybe a day to myself. I also want to find something to bake with Tums, she's been asking to bake something with me. She's been in such a helpful mood lately, I have no idea how I got so lucky with her. But I'm glad I did. She's an awesome big sister and she definitely makes everything much easier.
The least I can do is find something fun for us to bake on the weekends.
| Find Thanksgiving outfits
I usually just stay home on Thanksgiving and let the girls and Bubba go to his family's. But this year I've been trying to make it a point to be around more. I appreciate everything his family has done for me the last year and all they ever ask is that I share my time with them, esp on the holidays.
Bubba is usually in charge of finding the girls their Thanksgiving outfits. But since we're skipping Disney World this year (me and Tums are very sad about this) I figure it gives more room to spend that money elsewhere, especially for the holidays.
As for me, I think I already have my outfit.
| Work on Christmas stickers
To be honest, Christmas doesn't really make my list of favorite holidays. So when it comes to designing things for the shop, I typically skip the holiday themed stuff. If anything, I only have Filipino holiday themed products. Only because it helps me feel a little closer to home, I guess. I do need to do a better job of exposing the girls to Filipino holiday traditions, just not sure where to start.
I do plan on working on some Final Fantasy holiday stickers... mostly because I want Final Fantasy holiday stickers for myself lol.
| Work on shop 2
Shop 2 and I have a very complicated relationship right now. It is doing a great job of highlighting the things I still have yet to learn about everything. And while that is helpful, it's also very... frustrating. As is everything you're learning for the first time. I enjoy learning new things and I actually enjoy the frustration that comes with it.
So far I'm having a lot of fun with putting together Shop 2, it's just when I run out of idea's that I start to feel like an ant who's lost its colony and has no idea where to even go.
| Launch shop 3
Shop 3 is almost ready for launch. Actually, no, no it's not. But I really do want to launch it this month.
| Reorganize closet
This one is gonna take awhile. There's a lot to go through. And while my closet now has more open space, I don't feel it has... space. If that makes sense. I'm trying to find ways to make my stuff easier to find while still looking nice. The bigger problem is that I don't have anywhere to display my Loungefly bags the way this closet is set up. I'll figure out a way, somehow.
| Launch social's for new blog.. launch new blog
Due to some fucked drama that happened earlier this year, I've been finding less and less interest in Facebook and Instagram. I lost interest in IG a few years ago, but this event just made it so much worse. I actually lost access to the hazearella IG account, like, foreal. So there goes 14 years of work and building relationships and networks and... sigh. I take it as a sign that I needed to start over anyway, move on to something else.
I launched social media accounts for this blog elsewhere. On other platforms that encourage more engagement without being filtered.
The recent drama also forced me to start new blogs; I still hold on to this one because there's a lot here to look back on. But I've also launched a new review blog that I want to build, the 2024 way. It's been 10 years since I started hazearella and social media and blogging has changed a lot since then. I'm excited to start this new blog with the changes that the internet has made since starting hazearella.
| Read 3 books... please
I wasn't able to do my annual October reading challenge this year, and that's fine. I wasn't going to stress myself about it. This year has been Hell. Not as much as 2023 was, but a fraction of it. I'm set on taking the healing process more seriously from now until 2025, the girls deserve to have the best version of me and I deserve to find the control of my emotions again and the joy of the things I love.
With that said, I want to read at least 3 books this month. At least enough to complete my 2024 reading challenge. Without the restriction of sticking to a certain genre.
| All the recaps
I didn't have very many favorites this year, sadly. But I still want to get a start on getting my recap posts done and catching up on my Yelp, NetGalley and Amazon reviews.
| WATCH WICKED
I watched Wicked for the first time in 2009. Wizard of Oz has always had a special place in my life. Since then I've watched it a total of 14 times across 3 different states. I'm still friends with both the Fiyero's who played in the SF production from 2009-2010. Wicked changed my life for good. And I am so excited for seeing Wicked in a new way. And I love Ariana Grande! I'm so happy she landed the role of Glinda.
I met Bubba 8 years ago, what caught my attention was he was singing Defying Gravity in the voice chat. Since then he's built me a Wizard of Oz and Wicked shrine in every apartment we've had. And as I mentioned earlier, he's built me and both the girls a Wicked wardrobe since Wicked merch has released.
I actually have not bought one Wicked themed merch since they started coming out. Bubba has bought them all for me. From the makeup to the clothes to the pj's to my Emerald City hairbrush. At this point, I'm about to defy gravity myself.
Oh he also got me cupcake mix where it'll either turn pink or green. I'm super excited to get into those!
Hopefully I can get through most of these this month. Here's to a hopeful chill, cozy and relaxing November.
Do you have any goals for this month?
I discovered Honey Soda Co about 2 years ago. We connected on IG and I was drawn to their Disney inspired scents. It's always so interesting and fun to see how you relate with people on a social media app, especially when it comes to things you're passionate about. In my case it's candles/wax melts and Disney.
So for the last 3 holidays my apartment has been filled with Honey Soda Co wax melt scents and it's quickly become one of my favorite holiday traditions! Move over Bath & Body Works, foreal.
Honey Soda Co features seasonal scents in fun holiday shapes as well as in classic clamshells and more recently added jar candles to their product list.
This year these are the scents I picked up; I already melted through one of my Peppermint Mocha candy cane melts and I'm half way done with the Peppermint Mocha clamshell (it's clearly my favorite holiday scent from their line).
I'm excited to try the gingerbread scents next; I've been on a bit of a gingerbread kick this year. I love how festive these look! I just wish I had a better way to display and store shaped wax melts. I love that these are much easier to break, I've come across some that I literally need to take a butter knife to in order to get them to break lol.
Honey Soda Co is currently closed for December but they're planning on opening back up in January. I suggest following their Instagram for updates!
These wax melts will not disappoint!
What's your favorite indie wax melt company?
Valentine's Day has always a holiday I kept to myself. I wasn't like everyone else in Middle and High School that got those Valentine's Day Grams. I think my forever friend CJ was my Valentine for like the last 2 hours of the day once lmao. So it became a holiday that I used to show myself love. It sort of started the whole getting gifts for myself thing I'd do. I do kind of have an ironic Valentine's Day story that I'll probably blog about some time before Feb is over. I don't think I've told anyone about it -- except my brother (my actual biological brother) since he's the one who helped me!
And I was honestly SUPER confused, so I checked the note attached.
Sammie was my best of best friends in high school; we drifted because we dated some shit people who did some shit things. It wasn't until a few years ago we reconnected and especially now since we both now have kids. Austin is super cute and Tums spent a good amount of FaceTime time saying hi to him. I hope they can grow up to be friends!
I absolutely was not expecting this!! I feel SO bad because I didn't send her anything! But I did manage to send her a small xmas gift and one for Austin as well.
I'm super excited to try these Hot Cocoa Bombs just to see what all the hype is about -- as for the Sparkling Cider; we would celebrate the holidays over AOL together (she lived in SF and I lived about 40 mins away, and usually we'd be with "our families") and we'd ALWAYS drink Cider. It was like, tradition.
So last Thanksgiving I forgot to get Cider and she was saying how unacceptable it was so she tried to DoorDash me some lol! For Christmas she tried sending me a bottle but it somehow got lost.
Thank you so much for this gift Sam, it was seriously so freakin thoughtful of you and it made my day!
This year I decided to step outside of my “comfort zone” and get your typical green tree. As much as I wanted a white tree I couldn't find one that was at least 6" and affordable at the time we were looking for one. We got rid of our last one when we moved (no elevator here at the new place so a lot had to go).
This year's color theme was navy blue and bronze/burlap. I was heavy debating on navy blue and ice blue but most of the ice blue ornaments I found weren't icy enough. The only problem with this is that at night the navy blue ornaments kind of blend into the tree. But during the day it doesn't. Still, the tree itself came out really pretty. I really like how my husband uses ribbon, I suck at placing garland so the fact he uses ribbon gives it something extra without looking like a hot mess. Maybe next year I'll go around fairy-fy the tree lights.
I won't say that the tree is complete since it's missing some of my traditional ornaments; but also that I have no idea where they are. I know I have some in some of my vanity bins but I'll have to find them through the week so I can put them up before Christmas!
We usually pick a few special ornaments that match the theme of our tree, those we always keep. Here's a few from this year's theme.
This year has been more than a challenge for most people; some of us have had to completely change our lives around from how we work to how we spend time with our loved ones; with the holidays coming up I'm sure a lot of people are either on the end where they're feeling a bit of FOMO or they're gonna say screw the pandemic, I'm going to spend the holidays with my family anyway.
Whichever end of this spectrum you fall is not my business, do you booboo.
But as someone who's spent a lot of holidays alone, I'm neither. I grew up with my mom taking every single over time, double pay, holiday pay, whatever she could get. So for most of my childhood she wasn't there for Thanksgiving. My dad felt obligated to spend it with his side of the family and by the time I had hit 16 and my brother was 15 we stopped wanting to go with him and just wanted to stay home. So we would pile up our plates and watch A Christmas Story all day long.
When my ex husband and I moved across the country to Florida in 2013, we spent Thanksgiving either at work (cause Disney does not care what day it is, you come in, period) or just by ourselves. We learned how to mess up a turkey and sides together. And ended up just getting KFC instead lol. And there were years where my ex would go to work and I'd spend the whole day alone.
Which was fine, I honestly prefer to spend the holidays alone. I don't like big crowds or rooms with lots of people having a million different conversations at once. I do miss my family, don't get me wrong, but spending the holidays alone has never been a big deal to me.
I know it's going to be a big deal for others, so hopefully my 7 pieces of advice can help ease the sadness a little bit.
Early on in our relationship I made it a point to tell Bubba I wanted to be asked to be his Valentine; I didn't want him to assume that just because we were dating he didn't have to ask.
I don't know why I have this thing besides that I've never really been asked to BE someone's Valentine before. Hell I never really even HAD a Valentine's Day until Bubba came along. I use to use Valentine's Day as a day to spoil myself. My mom would get me gifts every since I was little and flowers every year though so I never really cared if I had a Valentine or not.
Even in the 11 years I was previously married we never really celebrated Valentine's Day. I did have a self tradition of having a Valentine's Day outfit. I figured if I wasn't gonna celebrate it, I might as well wear something nice that day. Plus pink is one of my favorite colors.
This year I randomly came out to the kitchen and saw this set up and Bubba asked me for a third time to be his Valentine ♡.
Every Christmas Bubba always says, "this is gonna be, the BEST Christmas EVER!" and every year he tops the previous year lol.
He also has a habit of letting me open gifts early.
One of the first early gifts I got to open was my Too Faced Gingerbread palette and my Fenty lip/cheek combos. Only cause Bubba wanted his tablet early lol.
He has a sort of tradition of getting me Too Faced palettes every Christmas and this was one I was super excited about! It doesn't smell like Gingerbread in my opinion, but it sure is pretty!
OMG, that place is like... a Winter Wonderland heaven!
We originally had planned a Disney tree but then, as always, I fell in love with this set of pastel balls so we changed the theme. Bubba had me run around and pick out other little details besides just different balls styles.

I LOVE Colourpop Liquid Lipsticks!
They're one of the first liquid lipsticks brands I've tried. They can be a bit drying, but I think all liquid lip can be to some sort of drying. I always put on lip balm then do my normal makeup routine THEN put on the liquid lippie last so it gives the balm time to sink into my lips. Especially since I struggle with dry lips, all year round.
These are a few of my fav reds that I like using during the holiday season — though some of these I also like to grab year round.
I wish I knew how to do those cool all in one images for stuff like this, I feel like the format I use is sort of sloppy.
Whomp!
This is the Christmas list I sent my fiance; I didn't include the stuff off my list he already got me.
I just realized though — most of the things on my wish list is makeup... and food. I wanted to incorp more skincare items since I acquired a mysterious scar on my forehead that makes it look like someone tried to bite into it. I also wanted to incorp more house things.
I need to revamp my apartment and my life, basically.
Whomp!
This is the Christmas list I sent my fiance; I didn't include the stuff off my list he already got me.
I just realized though — most of the things on my wish list is makeup... and food. I wanted to incorp more skincare items since I acquired a mysterious scar on my forehead that makes it look like someone tried to bite into it. I also wanted to incorp more house things.
I need to revamp my apartment and my life, basically.
Okay, I kiiiiiiiiiiiinda might had forgot it's blogmas/vlogmas... sooo we're just gonna wing this.
Whoops.
I really had no idea or any set plans on WHAT to do or feature for blogmas; we had an upcoming trip but we cancelled it recently which sucks but life happens and sometimes there's no way around that. The most you can do is plan better next time and clear your calendar for those plans.
December is always such a struggle month between various bills, renewals, holidays, freakin Christmas. It was easy when I spent the holidays alone and always planned to work on that day anyway... family holidays have always been a bit of a struggle for me.
Christmas has never really been a big holiday growing up; my mom had set traditions that she made sure we knew how important they were but majority of the time she spent Christmas Eve/Day working. So the "celebration" part and the "family" part had never really resonated with me.
Now that I'm building my own family and the fact that Bubba has such a huge close family is a bit overwhelming to me. It's not that bad but sometimes it still makes me a little uncomfortable, at least the thought does but once I get there they make feel comfortable enough to forget that part. For that, I'll always be thankful.
We have a few Christmas themed stuff we want to do around the Dallas/Fort Worth area this month; I'm hoping to get a few different type of photos for my blogs. But I'm so awkward in front of the camera sometimes.
We also have some wedding and Baby Lo prepping to get done... actually a lot of planning and prepping is in our very close future lol.
Here's to December: The things I'll discover, learn, experience and hopefully find a few new favorite things!


Last year I told Bubba that Easter was one of my favorite hoildays; my mom always made sure we had Easter baskets and as I got older she started adding Tulips to my Easter basket gifts. But when I moved away to work for Disney, she wasn't there to set up an Easter basket for me (though some years she would ship me one) and so I started making Easter baskets for myself.
(Fun Fact: Despite I was married before for pretty much 11 years, my ex husband never ONCE made me an Easter basket. Then again it took divorce papers to actually buy me a birthday gift for the first time ever so who knows.)
Last year Bubba made me an Easter basket claiming I can't make them for myself so he put together a basket and brought it with him to Disney World since we were spending my birthday there and he was flying out on Easter.
To this day, I have no idea how he fit that giant basket into his duffel bag.
Although this is Bubba and I's second Valentine's Day together I'm still floored at how much stuff he gets me for holidays; last year I had missed my flight on accident and I was so sad and crushed about it.
Since I wasn't able to spend VDay weekend with him like I had planned I was surprised to see THREE BOXES of gifts for me. I haven't posted about it here but I'll add those photos at the end of this post.
This year I had thought of taking him to Melting Pot since he's never been but then I got to thinking --- he works early the next day and it's probably gonna be all booked up for VDay. Perhaps it would be better if I took him another time.
So instead we just spent the day at home.
He brought over breakfast after work. We exchanged gifts. Had cuddle time (I needed a nap but I couldn't sleep). Then we ordered pizza and watched Zumbo's Dessert Challenge (quickly becoming a fav of mine). Pretty much an average day for us, minus the gift exchange. After the blah week I was having though it was nice to just cuddle and talk.

I wish I had taken more photos during this time of year all the years I lived in Florida/Disney World but to be honest I only got to go to the parks once the whole time I lived there and I didn't even get to walk around or really do anything so yeah, that sucked. But I did manage to snap this photo of hearts on the castle, this was back in 2013 by the way.

There was also a time when Candy Cauldron did customized apples, white chocolate with sprinkles were my fav. Last time I went there last April they said they didn't do custom apples anymore. It was a sad sad day.
I don't know what it is about seasonal sprinkles but they seriously make the treat that much more festive and enjoyable!

Overall Valentine's Day, Easter, Halloween and Fourth of July treats at Disney are probably my favorite time to see Goofy's Candy Co at Disney Springs just bursting with colors and different treats of all kinds. I do love how around Valentine's Day the Minnie apples and cake pop's come out!

The ones to the right were literally a pain to get a photo of because of the damn glare. But you can see the cutie cake pops next to the apples and I think those are better, personally.
I wish I could remember if we had Valentine's Day themed treats when I worked at Candy Cauldron in 2011, but I honestly don't remember at all. Working at a Disney candy shop though is a special kind of magic and if I'm being honest, my favorite kind of magic besides working in The Tree of Life and in Fantasyland.

I'm also slightly obsessed with Minnie and kind of always have been --- at least since I first worked at Disney in 2011. I love that she wears an oversized bow. I don't know what it is about that but I just love it! And plus she's always decked out in pink and the world girly describes her.
Sadly I didn't get one of these apples the day I snapped this photo and I didn't get to go back as often as I'd like to so I never got to grab one. I was a little hesitant to be honest, as much as I loved my apple sliced I didn't want to mess up the prettyness of this apple and it's not like I could be like, "hey can I take a couple hundred photos of this outside THEN can you slice it?!" okay they WOULD slice it if I had asked and if I had done that, I know I did it for other people. The request really is not that crazy.
Huh, I don't know why I didn't get one!
But next time I'm in the parks around this time of year I'll MAKE SURE to grab one!

And just in case you needed proof --- here's a photo of when I use to prop my hair up so I could pin a bow to it like Minnie does, I don't know how I got my bangs to part so nicely that day or how the heck the Pixie Dust looks like highlights but I freakin love this photo!
I'm also one of those people who stop by Sir Mickey's at Magic Kingdom or the Bibbity Boppity in World of Disney to get covered in Pixie Dust. It's my happiness, what can I say? My first Disney College Program apartment literally had glitter everywhere. It was awesome.
Have you been to the Disney parks around this time of year? What's your favorite thing to do or your favorite treat?
Holy crap where did the YEAR GO?!
I can't believe it's already DECEMBER!
I also can't believe how long I've actually been away from blogging; I have no real excuse either. Same goes for why I haven't been gaming. I don't know to be completely honest. I feel like days just zip by.
I had plans to do vlogmas (as I do every year) and blogmas this year both of just... didn't really happen. I mean jumping in on the 6th day is better than just NOT jumping in... right?!
I had hoped to be more prepared for Christmasy and Winter videos and blog posts and I've come to realize... my productivity and my drive to be the awesome blogger I know I CAN be just isn't there anymore! I don't know how or why... I do know I had hoped to revamp my social media once I moved and I was so stressed out with how the thing with the movers (I still need to write about) and everything had turned out that I just felt so defeated.
I think that's the problem with anxiety and seasonal depression --- is fighting through that epic defeated feeling in order to get the things done that you want done. And some days can just feel so endless and dark. AND THAT'S OKAY. I'm not gonna beat myself up for it anymore. I didn't FAIL at anything this month, everything is still fine. There's still time.
Even if I am battling a cold and all I wanna do is sleep --- this weekend in particular is going to be devoted to catching up on blogging, taking product shots, vlogging as much of my boring life as I can to put up a video on Sunday and sleeping. Cause I mean, I need sleep.
I don't have very many goals for myself this month and I DON'T WANT goals for myself this month really but I do have a few things I want to make sure is done before this year is over ---
- Figure out a direction for my blog and social media
- Come up with my [ onelittleword ] for 2018
- Come up with a SHORT list of SPECIFIC additional resolutions for 2018
- Research remote control jobs
- GO TO THE DAMN DOCTOR
- Upgrade my glasses (or early next year)
- Get back into meditation
- Get back into night time routine yoga
- Get back into Duolingo
- Get back into making healthier eating choices
- (Basically get back into the mentally healthy plan on things I fell off on)
- TIDY THE APARTMENT
- PUT THE SHIT AWAY
- Go into 2018 a little more ORGANIZED and TIDY
- Read as many books as you can
- Take holiday photos
- Figure out what to bake for Christmas Eve
That kinda seems like a lot but some of them can be clumped together/are things I do together. My anxiety and OCD have been nagging the hell outta me for weeks and it's getting hard to cope with. Things are a little stressful right now but nothing too bad if I'm being honest with myself so I'm confused as to why my anxiety and OCD have been acting up. I've been skipping bubble baths as well in hopes to get to bed earlier/giving myself time to read but I've just been so unmotivated which stinks cause it's December! I feel like I should be inspired like crazy!
Sigh, I guess you can't have everything.
One step and one day at a time.
What are some of your goals this month or goals before the year ends?
I miss writing these types of posts!
Also, I like how I go, oh nothing really happened this week to talk about! But I end up selecting 15 photos to include in this post --- all those photos are NOT going in this post lol.
One big thing that happened this week was that Bubz and I switched servers. I've been on Faerie on FFXIV since April and while I loved my time there, it was also pretty much time to go. I tried to stay and deal with the bad energy and the drama but it got to really drain me and made me not feel like getting on anymore and I know Bubz wanted a bigger house so we hopped over to a server with one of our other friends.
The holiday event started for FFXIV and I came home to finding our lawn covered in snow... but can we talk about how cute his cat boy is?!
I wanted to go Lala to justify wearing the entire reindeer suit so we did!
Yeah we're festive af, right?!
I kind of have this thing where I love Leap Year.
It always reminds me that life can tend to be messy, hectic and not go your way. And sometimes you need to just close your eyes, spin until you land in a direction and leap. I personally think that jumping not just into situations that scare you but doing things that make you think this is crazy is what really makes you get to know yourself better. Challenge yourself, reward yourself, trust yourself. Sure, maybe the path you picked will lead you into a dead end. Maybe it'll test you. Maybe it will be the best thing that's ever happened to you.
So what am I leaping for this year?
I've already made the switch to another school that honestly sort of scares me because of how focused it is on art and how serious it is about making your dreams come true. It's a little intimidating! Other than that, diving head first back into my business as well as into my blogs and working on content for my channels. But those are things I would had done regardless.
So what is something I'm going to take blind faith in? What scares me?
Traveling alone.
And it is something I'm going to have to deal with some time this year and yes it does scare me no matter how many times people say I'll be fine. Still, never traveling by yourself then having to... it's scary. Especially when it's across the country with a lay over. I hate lay over's as it is!
Divorce.
Which I know is something that is already in the works (okay, crazy that all of these things are happening this year and I wasn't even aware it was a Leap Year until like a week or two ago) but it's still scary because you're leaving your "comfort zone" or your "comfort person" rather.
And before I go, I just want to mention that today marks Flixie's 8th death anniversary (I think it's 8th) and I still miss him so much every time my anxiety gets really really bad. So I hope you're doing well, wherever you are and I'm still thinking of you fuzzy butt.
Flixie kisses • summer 2007
What are you going to take a leap for this year?
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
I know, we're four days into the new year and it's taken me this long to write this post. I'm usually more prompt. So starting the year off wrong right here. Actually a lot of what's been happening so far within these four days of the new year haven't really been the usual. And I don't really mind it. Sort of.
So I participated in #onelittleword last year, my word being [ happiness ] and you can check that out on my old blog (long story, actually no story I just wanted to change my name) and I was thinking of doing a reflection post on it so many I'll save my thoughts and wrap up of 2014 for that particular post.
This year as you can see my word is [ rediscover ] and with the year I have ahead of me, it's going to be a complicated and fun and scary word to live this entire year. But it's something I've been putting off in one way or another. I've lost touch with who I am. To myself. I've lost touch with how I view myself and that's dangerous. When you start basing how YOU see YOURSELF on how SOMEONE ELSE sees YOU, it's not a good thing. I've learned to never put that power in someone else's hands ever again. Because truth is, they don't deserve it and no one but is worthy of that power.
I'm going to go through some really really cliff diving changes in the next few months. Some of which are already in progress and some that I'm --- not gonna lie --- dancing around because I'm unsure about things but then I'm also sure. If that makes sense.
So here's to 2015 and all of the things I'll be forced to endure, struggle with, come to terms with, experience and hopefully I fall in love with life again. I'm really optimistic about this word and my goal and I can't wait to see where I am and how I feel at the end of this year.
It's gonna be crazy guys.
Happy Holidays!
I know I'm slacking hardcore in the blog updating department but that doesn't mean I haven't been planning! And now with my brand new camera, I feel like I can take on the world! No, seriously. I know right? Must be some serious stuff a camera can influence like that!
I hope you are all having an amazing day filled with loved ones, laughter, and really good food. As for me I'm alone today and I was planning a date with Netflix and pizza but I skipped on the Netflix because I was enjoying the quiet too much. I still plan on binge watching a few movies before they take them off though! Also binge reading a few books I'll be listing on Readarella later that I hope to finish before the year ends.... it's looking questionable though haha.
So it's Christmas. And it's Thursday so... I thought I'd throw it back to 1997.
Can you find me? I was... 12 when we did this routine. I could probably still do it in my sleep if I thought hard enough. But this was the very first color guard performance I ever did. I miss being in guard and in band so much, it was like being part of a family, literally. We'd yell at each other but come back and say sorry later. It was nothing but love. I loved being on stage, it was like pretending to be someone else. Someone more confident than the shy little girl I was back then.
I still can't do a horizontal. I mean I can, with gift wrap but not with a flag. Saber, yes. Rifle, yes. Flag, hell to the no. I have no idea why. I always think it's going to hit me or something... I can't explain it. Though I felt that way with a Saber but I do just fine. It's actually more terrifying with a Saber. A Rifle isn't so bad because it's weighted.
I hope you all enjoy my throwback, because I've watched it about 5 times now. It's so crazy to find this on YouTube and realize THATS YOU haha.
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