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Holy crap where did the YEAR GO?!
I can't believe it's already DECEMBER!
I also can't believe how long I've actually been away from blogging; I have no real excuse either. Same goes for why I haven't been gaming. I don't know to be completely honest. I feel like days just zip by.
I had plans to do vlogmas (as I do every year) and blogmas this year both of just... didn't really happen. I mean jumping in on the 6th day is better than just NOT jumping in... right?!
I had hoped to be more prepared for Christmasy and Winter videos and blog posts and I've come to realize... my productivity and my drive to be the awesome blogger I know I CAN be just isn't there anymore! I don't know how or why... I do know I had hoped to revamp my social media once I moved and I was so stressed out with how the thing with the movers (I still need to write about) and everything had turned out that I just felt so defeated.
I think that's the problem with anxiety and seasonal depression --- is fighting through that epic defeated feeling in order to get the things done that you want done. And some days can just feel so endless and dark. AND THAT'S OKAY. I'm not gonna beat myself up for it anymore. I didn't FAIL at anything this month, everything is still fine. There's still time.
Even if I am battling a cold and all I wanna do is sleep --- this weekend in particular is going to be devoted to catching up on blogging, taking product shots, vlogging as much of my boring life as I can to put up a video on Sunday and sleeping. Cause I mean, I need sleep.
I don't have very many goals for myself this month and I DON'T WANT goals for myself this month really but I do have a few things I want to make sure is done before this year is over ---
- Figure out a direction for my blog and social media
- Come up with my [ onelittleword ] for 2018
- Come up with a SHORT list of SPECIFIC additional resolutions for 2018
- Research remote control jobs
- GO TO THE DAMN DOCTOR
- Upgrade my glasses (or early next year)
- Get back into meditation
- Get back into night time routine yoga
- Get back into Duolingo
- Get back into making healthier eating choices
- (Basically get back into the mentally healthy plan on things I fell off on)
- TIDY THE APARTMENT
- PUT THE SHIT AWAY
- Go into 2018 a little more ORGANIZED and TIDY
- Read as many books as you can
- Take holiday photos
- Figure out what to bake for Christmas Eve
That kinda seems like a lot but some of them can be clumped together/are things I do together. My anxiety and OCD have been nagging the hell outta me for weeks and it's getting hard to cope with. Things are a little stressful right now but nothing too bad if I'm being honest with myself so I'm confused as to why my anxiety and OCD have been acting up. I've been skipping bubble baths as well in hopes to get to bed earlier/giving myself time to read but I've just been so unmotivated which stinks cause it's December! I feel like I should be inspired like crazy!
Sigh, I guess you can't have everything.
One step and one day at a time.
What are some of your goals this month or goals before the year ends?
It's really no secret that I SUCK AT GOALS this year.
BUT that won't stop me from making them! Cause at SOME POINT on this journey I'll get my driven, busy, GET EVERYTHING DONE --- TODAY attitude back. And until then, the most I can do is give myself something to encourage myself to get up and make a difference.
⇢ Clean out fridge
⇢ Sort kitchen
⇢ Put up Fall stuff
⇢ Organize closet
⇢ Organize bedroom (more)
⇢ Properly re-set up zen corner
⇢ Mop living room
⇢ Exchange unwanted B&BW Fall scents/products
⇢ Do returns/exchanges for Kohls, Macys, etc...
⇢ Work on buying Christmas gifts
⇢ BAKE SOMETHING
⇢ Finish October TBR (FINISH WINTER FOR THE LOVE OF GOD)
⇢ Prep Christmas/Dec posts/videos
⇢ Work on NaNoWriMo
⇢ Try 3 new places
I'm not going to overachieve and try to do things I know probably won't happen but instead do things that SHOULD be happening REGARDLESS that I know my OCD will find reasons to NOT do.
I can't believe how fast Sept and Oct flew by and that I technically have to put up my Halloween/Fall stuff now!
I wish I could blog more about my feelings or my day. I don't know what stops me all the time... it use to be my jam! And it's not like this blog has any particular purpose besides me recording my life. I noticed I stopped blogging on hazearella because I guess I've outgrown the blogger layout. I wish it was on Wordpress but I don't want to go through the headache of switching everything over --- especially the domain. I'm thinking of starting over with a new name, I'm just not sure what! The pressures of Instagram can be very influencing though, I'll admit that. And the fear of starting over completely is scary AND THIS IS WHY I DONT HAVE A SUCCESSFUL BLOG OR CHANNEL CAUSE I KEEP STARTING OVER! Even though I don't have THAT many followers on that blog itself. SIGH. I don't know.
But here's to hopefully a month of catching up, finishing up and getting ready for Christmas and a brand new year.
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Okay... I kinda failed in terms of updating through April like I had planned to. But it's okay, it happens. Life happens. I managed to do more in my life in April that I had been holding back on so I mean, every little accomplishment counts even if that means something else falls behind, right? We'll work on getting things balanced in time.
But just because everything you have planned in that month doesn't go as planned doesn't make it a hard fail either.
The next few months I'll have to try and find a way to balance most things together. I may have to go back to setting certain days for certain things --- which can be a challenge when you have a roommate who hogs the washer and dryer for FOUR FUCKIN DAYS (and also claims things but doesn't come through but we're not talking about that). But whatever, I'll figure it out.
Moving month is coming up and it's coming up FAST so NOW would be a good time to get my ass in gear considering there's A LOT to be done!
- Go to UHAUL and get boxes and a mattress sleeve (for the move)UHAUL has the most useful boxes when it comes to moving and they're not super expensive either. Also the mattress sleeve is a god send for someone with OCD like me. I also need to find a screwdriver to take apart the bed. I'll probably end up taking it apart a day or two early so the moving company can take it and just sleep on a pile of blankets.
- PACK
- PACK SOME MORE
- DO MORE PACKINGCause you know me, I need way more than just 3 reminders. Anxiety hinders this a lot. It's hard for me to pack when I have OCD about everything; it's hard to explain but it requires me to wash my hands --- a lot. So yeah. But with as many days as I have, if I start now, I should be fine. If I just get it done.
- Set up move with a moving companyI'm already in the process of getting estimates from different moving companies. I literally don't know wtf I'm doing, at all. I'm just Googling as I go.
- Start cleaning apartmentTHIS is going to be the toughest part for me. Especially if I get started on this before my roommate leaves --- which she better clean her room and bathroom on her way out cause if I lose my deposit again I SWEAR TO GOD. But this is one I usually don't have much of a problem with, especially if everything is already out. I'll do as much cleaning as I can, then that day that the moving company takes everything I'll finish up the rest of the cleaning. I just gotta figure out how I'm gonna do most of this... I may just take everything out of my room beforehand and vacuum the room then they can take the stuff + the vacuum and I won't have to worry about cleaning my room cause it'll already be clean! Yes! Good plan!
- Take Sophie to the vetThis is already in the process of happening, though I can't find her records that I got when I adopted her.. I need to look for those soon somehow. Or give the place I took her to last year a call.
- Buy plane ticketThis I would like to get done as soon as I can, though I know I can't book it until I'm confirmed of a few dates beforehand.
- Blog once a week
I won't pressure myself too much on this one.
- Post a video once a weekIn April I managed to post more videos than usual, I'm going to see about keeping that up since I'm in the process of reorganizing my YouTube channel (which is HERE in case you were wondering).
- Get classes to 60 on FFXIVStormblood is coming up fairly soon and somehow the months crept up on me. I'm in the process of getting 2 more crafting classes, 2 more gathering classes and 3 more job classes to 60. I NEED TO GET TO WORK!
- Try not to hate your roommateSmh. I'm normally a nice person, as long as you don't make the same repeat mistakes every single week.
- Reaccess food blog
I don't know why this didn't happen last month...
- Go to Flower & Garden Festival one more timeI need to find out when this exactly ends so I can go one more time before it's all over. Esp considering I'm moving out of state soon so next year it won't be as easy to get to T____T.
- Ship mom's Mother's Day gift
THIS. IS. SO. IMPORTANT.
- Read
It doesn't matter how many books, JUST. READ.
I know that's A LOT of stuff to cover in one month but I'm hoping my will to be accomplished and productive will kick in super fast and I'll get everything I need to get done --- done! Still I may be too ambitious but hey, whatever! Let's see how many things we can get done this month!
Here's to May... and getting ready to move to a new place with new adventures!
In the month of March I posted 7 posts; which isn't bad. It's certainly more than usual but I feel like I can do a little better.
It's my birthday month \o/
And we're halfway through the beginning of the year. This time of year kinda always sort of stresses me out since I move every July which means I need to get started on purging and getting things tidy and together. I say this every year and I never really do it then I get mad at myself for all the shit I have to pack when I move. I don't even have that much stuff, it's just all random.... stuff. Like how does someone end up with so much stuff?! I've been here in Florida for 5 years now and SO much has happened and changed and just... it's just been so much. I guess the amount of stuff I've gathered kind of reflects that to a point, yeah?
As for goals, I'm not really sure what I hope to accomplish this month... I haven't really thought of it either.
- Post 2 videos a weekThat would equal up to 8 videos. I'm taking a vacation for my birthday so I'm hoping that I'll vlog at least some of it! I've been awful about vlogging lately and I'm not sure why. Or how. As much as I'm use to or want my life to be out there, I also don't. I don't know how else to explain it but as someone like me, it's freakin weird. I've always wanted to be a YouTuber since I started posting videos in 2009 but it's always been an on and off thing. I'm hoping for the day it'll just be on.
- Enjoy the vacationEnjoy everything that this vacation has to offer. Enjoy and take in all the happiness and "yoooooooo" moments that Penny will do, Play. Laugh. Don't be so caught up in stress or time or bills or life or tomorrow or anxiety. Be you. Be Zel again, if at least for just a week.
- ReadBecause this always has to be written down.
- Drink more waterEspecially since most of this vacation is going to take place outdoors, drink. more. water. Though I'm sure Penny will be reminding you.
- Start purgingClothes. Papers. Stuff. Makeup. Whatever! Anything that doesn't hold enough of a feeling or whatever, get rid of it!
- Stop buying so much stuff you don't needWe were off to a good start in March due to saving up for the trip, LET'S KEEP THAT GOING.
- Clean your roomThis should had been a March goal, shit.
- GET OUT MOREStaying home is nice and all, but 3 weeks straight? Girl get some damn air.
- Burn 8 candlesAmbitious? Yes. Doable? Totally.
- Reacess food blogBecause what the fuck, I thought we did this already and nope. Nope. NOPE. Locked out again!
- Get gathering mentorshipBecause you're so damn close anyway.
- Figure out things for the moveI understand you hate it and shit, but it's gotta be done!
And the usual --- post more blog posts, post 2-3 times on Instagram. Blah blah blah. BLAHHH.
DON'T LET ME DOWN APRIL!
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Third month into the year and.... I feel like I haven't really accomplished much. Ever feel like your life is just going at SUCH A SLOW PACE? Yeah, I don't know what my end game is or what I'm looking for in life I just know it's going so slowly. Yeah, that doesn't make sense. Roll with me here.
February was such a shit month that it makes me almost not want to even bother with goals this month... almost.
Maybe instead I'll try to keep things simple.
- Find an apartment
This one is kind of important for various reasons. I'm so afraid I won't find a place I like and it's stressing me out! But even if I don't, I'm sure I'll figure something out... - Drink more water
This is one Penny has been getting on to me about a lot lately. The stress from recently has been making me sick and giving me headaches so I can see why he's so worried. - Make videos
Notice I didn't say "vlog" this time, though I do want to vlog more as well... but I really do need to make more videos, period. - Post 2-3 times a day on Instagram
I've been trying to (as always) up my followers (if you'd like to follow me you can do so here #shamelessplug) and I'm finding posting throughout the day helps... kinda. - Meditate
Because I literally need to do start doing this again. - KEEP READING
Don't stop... believing... HOLD ON TO THAT FEELING. - Cancel subscription boxes
Because let's be real Hazel, you don't need all of those. - Pay more attention to Penny
Because we get that stress and shit gets in the way but that doesn't mean the poor guy has to be second in line to social media and thangs. Just... give him your undivided attention sometimes, yeah? - Blog more
Stop letting stress and dumb people/situations stop you from doing you. You've got reviews to write, things to say, anger to let out! Blog it out! - Put more of ME in my blog posts, videos and social media
I'm always scared of letting ME show too much. Like you have to be this type of blogger for people to like you and this is something I've struggled with since I started YouTubeing in 2009. But if I'm not ME on my own platforms then... who am I? People will love me or not like me regardless, it's better to be not liked for who I completely am than liked for someone I'm not. - DO. SOMETHING. WITH. YOUR. HAIR. AND. FACE
Really. I usually throw my hair in a bun when I wake up and bum around which is fine, but how can I FEEL good if I don't LOOK good? Yeah I stole that from Penny, though he doesn't say that much anymore. - Prep for Easter/Spring posts and videos
Because things like this seem to always get away from you... plan these things ahead of time.
So here's to March!
Can we talk about how it's the second month of the year already?
I'm creeping up closer to seeing Penny again and I swear I just saw him but no, that was the beginning of December! I feel like this stretch of time went by SO MUCH FASTER than the last time. Crazy how that works!
I use to write monthly goals and sometimes they would help. Other times I would completely forget about them. I'm trying to be more realistic this year so I haven't decided if I'll still be doing monthly goals. Maybe on some months when I really want to accomplish/get things done that month.
With that said; I can't think of anything I REALLY want to accomplish in February beyond what I'm hoping with the goals for this year, you know?
So let's just go with a few notes to make about this month instead.
>> I'll be apartment hunting this month (because it's never too early to start; but the whole process is already stressing me out --- gah)
>> I'm really hoping I get my Weaver and Botnist on FFXIV to 60 by the end of the month
>> I'm really hoping to START leveling a tank class on FFXIV --- but I don't have high hopes for it
>> I'm hoping to read 3-4 books this month (I only read 2 last month so I'm "one behind")
>> I'm really hoping to finish Scarlet this month
>> I'm excited to see what my favorite things this month will be
>> That said, I'm excited to see what new things I'll find and discover this month
>> I'm excited to see what products/things I'll finish this month too
>> Wait, if there's only 28 days does that mean that Penny and I don't have a monthaversary this month since there's no 30th? D:
>> I'm HOPING I'll be able to put out videos on my YouTube channel twice a week this month
>> I'm also hoping that I'll remember to vlog while I'm out of state this time too
>> I'm hoping to get a little more tidy this month since I'm sure moving month is going to come up quick
Then there's a few personal goals.
But also, I started playing with my Sony WX300 last month and I've been trying to learn how to use it a bit more since I probably won't be seeing my Canon S90 any time soon. I'm actually really enjoying learning more about this camera and how it works. So here's to hoping I can take more and better product shots \o/.
What are some of your goals for this month?
I know everyone says this about every month but I mean... seriously. Can you believe it's already SEPTEMBER?! Because I sure as hell can NOT. I feel like I wait entire lifetimes for this month to come around because I just love it so much!
September means Fall is right around the corner. Pumpkin Spice everything is coming out. The weather gets cooler (yes even here in Florida it does drop a little bit. But it's enough to get me excited!). Halloweeeeennnnnnn. Fall home decor, nuff said. Fall scents. Pumpkins. And everything spooky! It also means me and Nick have survived 5 months together --- without killing each other and Sophie's six month adoption day is this month! Yup! It's been six months since Sophie has found her forever home and she's very very loved here. Not just by Nick and I but also by Nick's sister and his mother. Little Soph has a legit family.
It's been awhile since I've done one of these posts but since Fall is when I feel the most alive I figured why not start it up again!
BLOGGING GOALS
→ Hit 300 followers on Twitter
→ Hit 300 followers on Instagram
→ Hit 500 followers on Facebook
→ Write more reviews
→ Get on a steady schedule
→ Touch up "About Me" page
→ Update layout theme to match the season
→ Have an idea of blogging content from now until December
→ Be more active on social media
→ Get back to networking (actually my favorite part)
PERSONAL GOALS
→ Read at least eight books this month
→ Get bills in order
→ Get WG in order
→ Tidy apartment
→ Turn in homework at least 3 days early
→ Drink more water
→ Learn. To. Budget. (I know, it's an ugly word but it has to be done)
→ Get back to meditation and night/morning yoga
→ Clear out B&BW candles
→ Create a ZEN atmosphere
→ Study gems and relay on their energy for help
→ Understand that if you need a day alone Nick WILL understand
→ STAY POSITIVE
I know this is a pretty long and probably unrealistic set of goals to accomplish by the end of the month. But hey, you know me! Most of my lists are! I just want to strive to be more productive, more focused and feeling better. Emotionally, mentally and physically. I still have a ton of healing to do due to my divorce but you know what, life won't stop for you. Life won't stop for anyone. Yeah the resentment and angry and sadness will be there but that doesn't mean I have to entertain it. That doesn't mean I have to allow it to get to me. I live a pretty darn good life and I have nothing to be mad or upset about. So my marriage didn't work out. So he's dating the chick who ruined our marriage and lives in another country. So they both never respected me anyway. I mean, these are all things that everyone --- including myself --- were already putting together so why is it all so surprising? Why should I let something that I assumed hurt just because now it's confirmed? And bottom line really is who cares? Life. Goes. On. and I refuse to spend another month, another week, another day, another minute of my life and my time giving something so worthless my energy.
So here's to a productive and focused Fall, welcome back Hazel.
So I was suppose to post this like, way earlier in the month. Right after I talked about my #onelittleword with you guys. I didn't really make my solid resolutions. I think my mind is avoiding the subject every time I bring it up. Yup, it's doing it right now. So we're gonna go with month to month goals so it doesn't freak out.
So it is now Jan 19th and I have a week and a half left of January. The good news that I have a week of classes left then I can complete my admission papers to Full Sail which I am super excited about. The bad news is I don't remember what MLB stands for lmfao. That's awesome. I've joined 2 apps that I'm planning to sell things on. And debating on making either a page for it or an instagram account. I've got loads of stuff I can't take with me to Cali and I would rather find it a home than just get rid of it. Some of it will be super random and others of it will be makeup I never even knew I had. I seem to have been discovering a lot of those lately.
So, let's see what we can accomplish in this week and a half, yes?
Is there anything you hope to accomplish before January is up?
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