I honestly don't know why I don't update this blog as often anymore considering I still update the IG as frequently as I can.

March has been a challenge for all of us. With the quarantine's, the lock down's, the businesses closing and the entire media trying to scare the shit out of us into staying home -- which I'm not saying we shouldn't stay home, I definitely think we should -- but I'm just tired of all the scary negative news every time I open a browser or an app. It doesn't help my mom continuesly talks about the Corona every chance she gets. Every single day. No matter what else we're talking about.

So March has been a lot of staying home; which honestly, as a SAHM I already stay home every single day but Saturday on a regular basis. So. Basically it's been a non adventure on Saturday month.

Some cool things DID happen though! This stay at home thing has made me epically fail at my financial health goal -- but it's okay! Cause those trips are cancelled anyway! I still have time to re-save up that money lmao. I hate myself, why am I like dis lmao.

Early on in our relationship I made it a point to tell Bubba I wanted to be asked to be his Valentine; I didn't want him to assume that just because we were dating he didn't have to ask.

I don't know why I have this thing besides that I've never really been asked to BE someone's Valentine before. Hell I never really even HAD a Valentine's Day until Bubba came along. I use to use Valentine's Day as a day to spoil myself. My mom would get me gifts every since I was little and flowers every year though so I never really cared if I had a Valentine or not.

Even in the 11 years I was previously married we never really celebrated Valentine's Day. I did have a self tradition of having a Valentine's Day outfit. I figured if I wasn't gonna celebrate it, I might as well wear something nice that day. Plus pink is one of my favorite colors.

This year I randomly came out to the kitchen and saw this set up and Bubba asked me for a third time to be his Valentine ♡.

Happy year of The Pig!

This year we went and joined the Lunar New Year celebration like we did last year.

2018 was a whirlwind of a year.

I also hate how out of order my posts are going to be for the next month; I still have one or two 2018 posts I want to write but I've already started writing 2019 posts. Whoops.


Pregnancy brain.
For one of the last trips to Dallas in 2019 I wanted to try a French bakery that I've had my eye on pretty much all year — Bisous Bisous Pâtisserie which is located in Uptown Dallas. I won't be reviewing the bakery in this post, I'm saving that for a different post cause it deserves its own post. Trust me.

I've wanted to change the content for hazearella (my lifestyle/makeup/candle blog) for a few years now but never had the drive to make the content or take the pictures I wanted. So I decided on this day, I was going to.

I wanted to start 2019 with being the blogger I always wanted to be; to my surprise when I pitched this idea to Bubba his only response was: "F I N A L L Y." Gotta love a man who supports your passions!

I'm still working on not being camera shy and I'm still working on how to pose for photos. I'm so use to being behind the camera and when I'm not, I'm usually turned around or taking a selfie.



I hope in 2019 I'm able to let go of these small silly insecurities. That I'm able to express myself more and be okay with the fact that no matter how hard I try sometimes my makeup isn't going to always be perfect. Or that not every photo will be perfection. But I hope to post it all anyway. I hope to have fun with it. I hope to fall in love with lifestyle blogging the way I always dreamed and wanted.
I also hope to learn how to dress myself like a human being as well! I told myself no hoodies in 2019 (I mean of course there's certain exceptions but for the most part if we're going OUT OUT, no hoodies). I use to put effort into dressing nice and doing my hair and putting on makeup; I want to get back into that habit again.

Because it made me feel good. It made me feel awake and alive. It made me feel productive. And with a baby on the way — I'm sure you can assume how drained and blah I feel on a daily basis. Pulling yourself out of that is hard; but I don't want to end up like those mama's who can't find time to take care of themselves and end up blaming the baby.

Baby Lo is here to enhance my life. Not take over it. Not change it. Not take things away from me. But add on that extra encouragement. The extra smile and laugh while I figure out this new chapter in my life that's coming up quick!

I don't know why I find it so hard to update on my own dang pregnancy but it drives me crazy! I had hoped that I would keep this super organized archive of everything happening so when Baby Lo was born I could look back on it all and my experience. But to be honest in the last 27 weeks I think I've written like 3 pregnancy blog posts.




I've been at least trying to keep up with taking my weekly baby bump photos; though I wish I'd put a little more effort and "show" into them I guess. But baby bump selfies are super hard! Especially when my bump isn't big enough and finding the angle for it to show in a photo is a struggle in itself!
Also weird because on thebump.com the objects were switched: 26 weeks was an Eggplant and 27 weeks was a Cauliflower. I guess the idea is the same though lol!

Every Christmas Bubba always says, "this is gonna be, the BEST Christmas EVER!" and every year he tops the previous year lol.

He also has a habit of letting me open gifts early.


One of the first early gifts I got to open was my Too Faced Gingerbread palette and my Fenty lip/cheek combos. Only cause Bubba wanted his tablet early lol.

He has a sort of tradition of getting me Too Faced palettes every Christmas and this was one I was super excited about! It doesn't smell like Gingerbread in my opinion, but it sure is pretty!

This year we decided on a white tree that we would decorate together — I'm such a sucker for white tree's, but I'm also a sucker for pastels! We stopped by At Home stores (FINALLY) and I want crazy.

OMG, that place is like... a Winter Wonderland heaven!

We originally had planned a Disney tree but then, as always, I fell in love with this set of pastel balls so we changed the theme. Bubba had me run around and pick out other little details besides just different balls styles.

The Texas State Fair has always been on my bucket list when I lived in Cali but being stuck in a small town with dreams of traveling I never thought I'd be able to make it to one; and I totally never ever thought I'd ever move to Texas!


This year we went to our SECOND Texas State Fair together!

This year I wanted us to get a picture together and someone was kind enough to snap this photo for us! You can barely tell I'm pregnant though lol and being pregnant I thought I'd have a little more eating room... but nahhh, I didn't lol!

We had a vague list of things we wanted to try and we went with doing savory before sweet unlike the year before and I think it worked out a lotttt better that way. We got to try some really good things! Here's a few of our favs;



Deep Fried Shepard's Pie;

This is one we stumbled on when we first walked in. We didn't exactly know what to expect but we were pleasantly surprised to see it came with Gravy and Deep Fried Green Beans.

The Deep Fried Green Beans were SO GOOD. Dipped in that Gravy? OH SO YUMMM!!

The Deep Fried Shepard's Pie was also really good ─ I loved how it was filling stuffed into a ball of Mashed Potatoes. Dipped in the Gravy it was so good and savory!


Cotton Candy Taco;

THIS WAS OUR FAV.  And it was one of the biggest things on my list that I had seen before on Instagram.

We found our way to the one inside the car model room where they had the S'mores Cotton Candy Taco. There was a stand outside we found later that had a Strawberry Shortcake and a Chocolate Covered Cherry one as well as the S'mores.

So this was pretty much a Waffle Cone shaped like a Taco Shell; inside was Marshmallow sauce then they put on to some kind of delicious Cotton Candy. Sprinkled with Oreo crumbs and more Marshmallow sauce and 2 delicious Pocky sticks. I don't know WHAT KIND of Pocky these were but the Chocolate on them were so good. I just wanted a box of those on their own.

Oh I hope this is there next year as well! I'll be getting TWO.


We went by the rides/games section and Bubba wanted to win me something, he nailed this one on the first try! He was a pain to walk through the Fair with because he's so awkwardly shaped but how sweet of him!


Here's my outfit and makeup look for the Fair;

Eyes; HUDA Gemstone Obsessions in Ruby
Face; Julep Perk It Under Eye Treatment Brightener + ELF Tone Correcting Powder
Lips; Colourpop Disney Designer Lip Stick in Tiana

Sadly I lost that beanie! And I've had it for years! I have no idea where it went off to and I'd be lying if I said I wasn't sad about it... whomp. Hopefully it's just hanging around the apartment or in Bubba's car somewhere.

This is possibly the first time I'm ever writing a Fall Bucket List.

And the third year I'm missing Halloween at Disney World -- life changes are always hard and having something you love so much that you can't go back to is always hard.

I'm enjoying actually being able to feel Fall here in Texas, something that Florida couldn't grant you no matter how much wishing you do!

You can find magic anywhere. If you look hard enough.

This pregnancy delayed my plans to deck my apartment out in Fall decor (it's the 11th and nothing is up yet! I know, fuckin crazy right?) so to get myself in the Fall mood I figure I'd make a list of things I hope to see/do this Fall season!

• Go to a Pumpkin Patch
  I honestly don't remember the last time I actually went to a Pumpkin Patch! Maybe when I was in grade school and we would take school trips to one? And the only reason why I even remember that is because of pictures I've seen!

• Complete my October Reading Challenge
  I look forward to this challenge every year because I always end up finding 1 or 2 books I absolutely fall in love with because of it! So I'm hoping I get a good amount of books read this year because so far this year I've only fallen in love with one book and it makes my soul restless!

• Work on taking Fall aesthetic photos
  I love love LOVE seeing Fall aesthetic photos on Pinterest and on Instagram! Photos always have a way of inspiring me and I love how aesthetic photos make me feel.

• Visit the Dallas Arboretum
  I recently just discovered this place through an Instagram ad (and they say those things aren't useful)! Last year they themed their Pumpkin Patch for OZ! I'm so sad I missed out on it!! This year it's themed after Neverland! I love gardens and such so I'm pretty excited to see this!

• Go to the Texas State Fair
  In Cali our state fair was always in the summer time -- when it was hot and sticky and there were way too many people. Here in Texas it's in October -- thank goodness! It's still pretty warm but it's not hot. There's so much to see/do and eat! I always had "Attend a Texas State Fair" on my bucket list and I never thought I'd see one so it blows my mind that I get to go to them now!

• Bake something
  I'm sure I'm not the only one who pins about a million different "Fall recipes" on Pinterest in hopes to spend afternoons in the kitchen baking up pretty pastries and savory dinners. When in reality we probably won't even get to one of those. WELL NO MORE I SAY! I'm hoping this year I'll get to bake something. At least one thing. Even if it's not until November (cause TECHNICALLY that's still "Fall")!

• Stroll through Trader Joe's and pick up a thing or two
  You can't say Trader Joe's is not the Fall food aesthetic headquarters. You just can't! Granted I haven't been there in the Fall, I don't think. I know I haven't picked up or tried any of their Pumpkin treats yet! So I'm aiming to change that this year AND WHEN I DO better believe there will be a wholeee blog post about my experience! 

• Get my apartment into the zen space I want it to be
  This for some reason is really hard for me right now -- I can't figure out why. I know I had missed out on about 3 months of hope to get anything done around my apartment in terms of tidying, sorting and organizing. But now that I feel pretty much better my OCD is what's holding me back most days. I wish I could explain it in more detail than just leaving it like that but I'm really hoping to fight back some day before this month is over and get it at least somewhat to what I can consider zen. Especially with the baby coming soon...

• Play with more dark and vampy makeup looks
  I haven't been playing with or wearing much makeup as of late and I know it's because I was feeling really crummy up until recently but now with Fall here and Winter just right around the corner I can finally pull out all my dark makeup looks and my beloved dark lipsticks! Oh how I miss the 90's when dark lip colors were acceptable year round!

Gosh this list turned out longer than I thought it would!

What are some things you hope to do this Fall?

Hai guys.

I feel like I haven't been here in forever. I honestly think the idea of being the "ideal blogger" with the "perfect photos/flat lays" has seriously gotten to me and it's taking a serious toll on my blog and Instagram accounts.

I try to post photos and updates more freely on Twitter, as much as I can/remember to.

A lot has happened since the last time I was here so I'll try and do a quick recap;

⇢ Get your shit together (at least a little bit)
⇢ Read 3 books (and not on the last day of the month)
⇢ Blog more // I know shit can be hard but girl it's your release SO QUIT IT
⇢ EXPLORE more, spend LESS
⇢ Apartment hunting
⇢ Tidy room & closet / purge shit you really don't need
⇢ Sort digital stuff / back up laptop (since it's been like years since you did)
⇢ Get RDM and AST to 60 on FFXIV
⇢ Find something that calms you
⇢ Practice better time management
⇢ Catch up on reviews that need to be written
⇢ Celebrate your birthday... the best you can

So here's to April; my personal restart button.