Complete my October Reading Challenge

This is one thing I aim for every year (for the last 10 years); some years I'm successful and other years... not so much. But it's definitely one of my favorite challenges I came up for myself. I'll try not to overwhelm myself this year, but no promises.

Bake

I really want to start baking more this year in general. I've always wanted to attempt Fall baking which makes your home smell warm and cozy. Pinterest has a bunch of great recipes to find (and a bunch I have saved over the years)!

Play with dark looks

I've always loved dark makeup. OG dark Filipino lipstick like in the 90's, dark eyeshadows usually smoked out with black. But lately I admit I have not been playing with dark colors. I've been playing more with natural and light shades. I don't know how or why the switch happened, but I really want to get back to my roots!

Review Fall snacks

Fall snacks are my favorite. When Target switches to the Fall section it just makes my soul so happy! I'm a sucker for Caramel Apple anything. I think I've outgrown the Pumpkin Spice scene. But I do still love a good slice of Pumpkin Pie! I'm excited to see what new snacks are coming out in 2020.

Take Fall inspired pictures

Vote

Tidy & Purge before setting up for Christmas

How is it possible that this year is traveling even faster despite the on and off lock down's?! This year is just zooming by; it's almost Spooky and Holiday Szn and I'm glad to have something to look forward to.

Read

I honestly don't know why I don't update this blog as often anymore considering I still update the IG as frequently as I can.

March has been a challenge for all of us. With the quarantine's, the lock down's, the businesses closing and the entire media trying to scare the shit out of us into staying home -- which I'm not saying we shouldn't stay home, I definitely think we should -- but I'm just tired of all the scary negative news every time I open a browser or an app. It doesn't help my mom continuesly talks about the Corona every chance she gets. Every single day. No matter what else we're talking about.

So March has been a lot of staying home; which honestly, as a SAHM I already stay home every single day but Saturday on a regular basis. So. Basically it's been a non adventure on Saturday month.

Some cool things DID happen though! This stay at home thing has made me epically fail at my financial health goal -- but it's okay! Cause those trips are cancelled anyway! I still have time to re-save up that money lmao. I hate myself, why am I like dis lmao.

Early on in our relationship I made it a point to tell Bubba I wanted to be asked to be his Valentine; I didn't want him to assume that just because we were dating he didn't have to ask.

I don't know why I have this thing besides that I've never really been asked to BE someone's Valentine before. Hell I never really even HAD a Valentine's Day until Bubba came along. I use to use Valentine's Day as a day to spoil myself. My mom would get me gifts every since I was little and flowers every year though so I never really cared if I had a Valentine or not.

Even in the 11 years I was previously married we never really celebrated Valentine's Day. I did have a self tradition of having a Valentine's Day outfit. I figured if I wasn't gonna celebrate it, I might as well wear something nice that day. Plus pink is one of my favorite colors.

This year I randomly came out to the kitchen and saw this set up and Bubba asked me for a third time to be his Valentine ♡.

Ohhh baby, you're getting big.

I'm always tired.

Happy year of The Pig!

This year we went and joined the Lunar New Year celebration like we did last year.

2018 was a whirlwind of a year.

I also hate how out of order my posts are going to be for the next month; I still have one or two 2018 posts I want to write but I've already started writing 2019 posts. Whoops.


Pregnancy brain.
For one of the last trips to Dallas in 2019 I wanted to try a French bakery that I've had my eye on pretty much all year — Bisous Bisous Pâtisserie which is located in Uptown Dallas. I won't be reviewing the bakery in this post, I'm saving that for a different post cause it deserves its own post. Trust me.

I've wanted to change the content for hazearella (my lifestyle/makeup/candle blog) for a few years now but never had the drive to make the content or take the pictures I wanted. So I decided on this day, I was going to.

I wanted to start 2019 with being the blogger I always wanted to be; to my surprise when I pitched this idea to Bubba his only response was: "F I N A L L Y." Gotta love a man who supports your passions!

I'm still working on not being camera shy and I'm still working on how to pose for photos. I'm so use to being behind the camera and when I'm not, I'm usually turned around or taking a selfie.



I hope in 2019 I'm able to let go of these small silly insecurities. That I'm able to express myself more and be okay with the fact that no matter how hard I try sometimes my makeup isn't going to always be perfect. Or that not every photo will be perfection. But I hope to post it all anyway. I hope to have fun with it. I hope to fall in love with lifestyle blogging the way I always dreamed and wanted.
I also hope to learn how to dress myself like a human being as well! I told myself no hoodies in 2019 (I mean of course there's certain exceptions but for the most part if we're going OUT OUT, no hoodies). I use to put effort into dressing nice and doing my hair and putting on makeup; I want to get back into that habit again.

Because it made me feel good. It made me feel awake and alive. It made me feel productive. And with a baby on the way — I'm sure you can assume how drained and blah I feel on a daily basis. Pulling yourself out of that is hard; but I don't want to end up like those mama's who can't find time to take care of themselves and end up blaming the baby.

Baby Lo is here to enhance my life. Not take over it. Not change it. Not take things away from me. But add on that extra encouragement. The extra smile and laugh while I figure out this new chapter in my life that's coming up quick!

I don't know why I find it so hard to update on my own dang pregnancy but it drives me crazy! I had hoped that I would keep this super organized archive of everything happening so when Baby Lo was born I could look back on it all and my experience. But to be honest in the last 27 weeks I think I've written like 3 pregnancy blog posts.




I've been at least trying to keep up with taking my weekly baby bump photos; though I wish I'd put a little more effort and "show" into them I guess. But baby bump selfies are super hard! Especially when my bump isn't big enough and finding the angle for it to show in a photo is a struggle in itself!
Also weird because on thebump.com the objects were switched: 26 weeks was an Eggplant and 27 weeks was a Cauliflower. I guess the idea is the same though lol!

Every Christmas Bubba always says, "this is gonna be, the BEST Christmas EVER!" and every year he tops the previous year lol.

He also has a habit of letting me open gifts early.


One of the first early gifts I got to open was my Too Faced Gingerbread palette and my Fenty lip/cheek combos. Only cause Bubba wanted his tablet early lol.

He has a sort of tradition of getting me Too Faced palettes every Christmas and this was one I was super excited about! It doesn't smell like Gingerbread in my opinion, but it sure is pretty!