Showing posts with label goals. Show all posts
Showing posts with label goals. Show all posts
I wonder how many of these Hello June blog posts exist on this blog. I do wish I had continued to consistently blog here... but between getting distracted from other blogs on different platforms and being a highly emotional driven person... that just wasn't happening. And I can't beat myself up for that, life is life and consistency in the things we like to do isn't always going to happen. And that is totally okay. Especially when it comes to creating content; content creating is already hard and emotionally taxing as it is, doing it when you're depressed or in a bad place in your life feels impossible.
Granting myself grace has never been easy, and I honestly have never done it. I always expect the most from myself because I know what I'm capable of... but in the moments where I just can't, I shouldn't punish myself.
This blog generates its own traction of thousands of views a month, I assume because it's been here for over ten years. But whatever it is, I'm glad for the views I do get, especially in the months I don't post anything.
I've told myself for the last 2 years I was going to work on healing and each time those plans didn't happen because I have too big of a heart. I can feel myself reverting back to that person who just didn't care as much as she did, and that's not really who I want to be. I care, naturally. That's just who I am. I'm trying to learn to not let other people's deflections, or their demons define me. I'm trying to learn that people act the way they act because of who they are. There's no reasoning or hoping for change, and change that isn't done for yourself is just a show.
This month I want to focus on healing my nervous system as much as I can. Learn how to move forward without still being angry about what's behind me. I want to laugh more. I want to find more things I love. I want to discover new snacks and foods, because that's what makes me happy. I want to share those or taste test them with my kiddo or my husband because that too makes me happy.
I want to go back to falling in love with books, stories that move and change me. I want to go back to writing like I'm running out of time. I want to discover more music. Play more games that I find myself searching their hashtags for on IG in the middle of the night.
I want to open a new shop, one that no one really knows or will know about. I want to create art for myself and the people who find and resonate with it.
I want to keep more about myself, to myself. I've always been a pretty open book and on my blogs, I don't exactly regret that... you don't heal from shutting yourself away, you heal by being more mindful of who deserves your trust and energy. But when it comes to people who know me in real life, I want to keep more of myself and struggles to myself. They've been weaponized by so many people I know in real life that it became extremely discouraging. My husband gave me advice that I still think about today after I had left for the second time: "it doesn't matter how much you cry, beg or bleed, some people just don't care." I don't talk about my husband as much as I should, I use to have him all over this blog. But for someone who's had zero experience with ocd, anxiety and depression... he's good at sensing when something is wrong and he's quick to apologize if he knows it's something he did on accident. I get endless cuddles, hugs and tickles from him and the babies when I'm sad. He's taught them how to be gentle with me and my heart as well. I'm truly thankful.
I would say I want to start cooking, but I always say that and it doesn't happen. I use to be really into Hello Fresh when I'd get Sunday's to myself and I would cook. Or I'd have my husband cook them. And we've discovered so many good ones through Hello Fresh.
I want to start blogging my weekend recaps and my monthly favs again. Along with some of the girls favs as well. I want to revamp my motherhood blog and motherhood accounts.
I want to go back to streaming and talking about video games I love. I shouldn't let someone else's opinion define what brings me joy, especially if that person themselves have no idea what the heck I'm doing or even talking about.
This month I want to work on reclaiming my joys and the things I love doing. I'm honestly excited for myself and I can't wait to see where this will take me.
What are your goals for June?
We are now five months into 2025, where has the time gone? But also, what is taking Fall so long to get here?!
I am thankfully feeling less sick, the maintenance needed to keep me feeling normal sucks. But it is what it is and I don't think fixing this earlier would had made much of a difference, it was going to catch up to me sooner or later. I write it off as part of getting older. It has forced me to focus my life in places that should had taken priority the last few years, and didn't.
I have also been back on working on my usual hustle, it's much more challenging this time around for sure... mostly because the excitement of starting has faded, obviously, and because I now have 2 kids instead of 1 to keep track of while working... or struggling to work.
While it can be challenging, it is also very rewarding.
May Goals;
| Prep for May The Fourth
May The Fourth is something me and my husband celebrate every year since we got together in 2016. Sometimes we go all out and other times we just spend the day watching Star Wars movies and eating pizza. Now with 2 kiddos, we tend to go all out. I do appreciate that he takes this day seriously for me since I've had some horrible memories associated with it in the past.
But it's a day I look forward to every year.
| Add 4 new products to each shop
I have a habit of working on things and just... never posting them lol. I know that makes zero sense, and honestly I can't figure out why I do this either, but I do and I need to stop. I miss the days I would just post/go for it and not even think twice. It's like the perfection of things matters when it really shouldn't.
People won't find you if you don't make yourself known.
| Work on getting Shopify up & running
Me and Shopify have a very long and complicated relationship. There is so much flexibility with Shopify and so much more control over your business... but you're on your own to market without the help of Etsy's search bar. And because there is so much more freedom with how you design your Shopify shop, it can get overwhelming really fast.
However, at this point, I'd like to have that freedom and flexibility.
| Write. More. Gaming. Posts
Again with the taking content and not posting lol. I demo and play a lot of games, especially ones that are in Early Release with the intention of making content and writing about it. It's just... the posting I struggle with lol! A recent trauma has played a part in that for sure, but I'm trying to push passed it.
I started writing for me, and I started long before I met people who discouraged and put me down about it. I started long before they could even learn to type. My audience does not include them, so why let something so small and insignificant stop me from doing something I love?
People who hate on you for your hobbies and interests when they could never even understand what you do is diabolical and says more about their own lack of hobbies and interests than it does about yours. Creators and creatives don't sit around and bash other creatives, that's what sets us apart from the rest.
| Purge kids outgrown clothes
My husband found some newborn clothes mixed into our stuff. Not sure how or why they were there, but they were and it made us wonder what else is lurking in the clothing piles lol. I know I have some of Tums older stuff in one of my hampers from the last place, so I plan on going through that this month and purging the stuff that doesn't fit me or the girls anymore.
At 40, I feel the need to purge different areas of my space and my life. I think every 10 to 20 years it's good to take a look at your life and see how far you've come, where you want to go and who you want to be and adjust accordingly.
I miss doing the things I use to do effortlessly, like reading and blogging. Taking amazing product shots and working with companies. However I want to add create my own company to the list of things I've done and accomplished as well. And while my main shop has been down for some years now, I'm not done with it just yet.
So here's to a productive May and achieving the goals I set out for myself at 40.
Wow, I thought I had posted this here... but I guess I didn't. Whoops. That's a first of missing it.
2021 was better than 2020 for sure.
I got to see my BFF and spend my birthday with her at Disney World after not seeing her for 15 years. I also got to see my girl Alexis and it was our 10 year anniversary since our Disney College Program. It was so nice to see them both. I also got to go back in November for Christmas time stuff as well as hit Universal Studios where I met up with my friend Angely. She's so fun to be around! I'm glad I was able to see her!
The end of 2021 was unexpected for lack of better word. I opened up my shop and it did really well the first and second month. I mean it did pretty well all the rest of the year but the sales I made exceeded what I thought would happen. I'm thankful for the sales and the learning process that it took to launch my shop. It's been fun learning... well... everything. And having another outlet to express myself.
I got to spend more time with my Kuya Dru despite his crazy work schedule. Me and this dude have a crazy friendship history that spans all the way back to when we were 14 and freshmen in high school. I'm absolutely thankful for all these years of friendship (23 years of having to deal with my bullshit... and it's been a lot of bullshit) and having his guidance and company.
This year I want to focus more on balance.
Which is something I've struggled with especially since giving birth. I'm thankful for the ways I learned how to create balance between being a mother to a very active toddler and balancing a whole ass business. I lost a lot of sleep... but it was def worth it.
I want to focus more on balancing the things I want out of life and making them happen. 2021 showed me I'm capable of the things I know I'm capable of... I just have to want it and manifest it and keep my vision clear and unclouded -- that's the hard part.
Here's to 2022 and working more on myself and creating the life I want.
Did you pick a word for 2022? I'd love to know if you did in the comments below!
Oh wow, it's March already?
Anyone else feel like Feb was both the longest and shortest month? It's kinda weird. A lot happened in Feb which is probably what made it feel so long for me. Thankfully we're one step closer to summer. After that weird random snow storm here in Texas I'm MORE than ready for hot humid weather. Or well, as humid as Texas can get, I guess.
The next couple months are going to (hopefully) be exciting (if nothing gets prematurely cancelled). And I really really need a break from chores, life and the mundane.
I'm also convinced that Texas pissed off someone somewhere because all this bad juju coming to TX is not it. First the snow storm, then people losing power FOR DAYS and clean water. Then now this; them lifting the mandatory mask and now allowing businesses to operate at 100%. Like really? Some people are still trying to recover from the dang snow storm but sure, I guess this is more important. What makes it worse is that TX barely took it seriously to begin with. The amount of Texans I know who GOT covid is unreal. Seriously.
AINT SHIT TO DO OUT HERE, STAY HOME. Dang.
Lemme get into my goals before I go on a full blown rant lol;
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I know this post is a bit late this year but I got caught up in a few other things I'll talk about later!
This is my 5th? 6th? I don't remember; doing OneLittleWord. I always look forward to the New Year to pick a new word. What do I want my intentions to be for the year ahead?
My word for 2020 was Wellness and I think I did a pretty good job letting that word be the focus of most things, though I'm not that lucky every year. So what was a word that was possible to implement into my life?
My mental health was pretty up and down in 2020 which is fine, but I noticed I was afraid of things I had kicked fears of before and that was not okay. I'm trying to take steps forward, not back. I learned a lot about boundaries and saying no. There were also a lot of things I had put off in 2020 that I really wanted to do, but just didn't have the energy to.
It's finally Fall!
Bring on the pumpkins, warm Starbucks drinks, spooky (or if you're like me, spoopy) reads and movie marathons, and orange everything! And if you're lucky enough to live somewhere where the leaves actually change colors this month, just know, I'll be scrolling the hashtag on IG.
Texas doesn't get a change of color until PROBABLY mid to late November. I guess I shouldn't complain since Florida never changed colors lol. Cali is still hands down one of my favorite places to be in the Fall. It's beautiful. But you know what's not? That cost of living tho. That traffic tho. That high ass gas prices tho. I've grown to love seeing gas under $2 lol.
Meanwhile, Tums whos name is actually Autumn, isn't into flashing pumpkins or Wheelers from Return to Oz. I'm going to chalk it up as she's a baby. She's new to this world and its workings. Yup, that's what I'm going with.
We moved.
Cause you know, that's a thing I do every year too. And the first night at the new place was rough. It seemed like nothing was really going right. Then we discover, right before our nightly shower before bed at like 3am we had no hot water. Guys. I have OCD, I HAVE to shower but I just couldn't do it. I was crying at how cold the shower was. But the weird thing is even though cold showers can HURT like 10 mins after you're out you're good. Like what cold shower?! Tums was loving it. She showered with her dad cause I was just not having it and she was laughing and trying to run back to the water even though she was shivering. Crazy child. Then you know, our microwave was missing the rotating disk. And just a bunch of other stuff that should had been ready by the time we got here.
Anyway, it's October which means Blogtober so let's get started!
October Goals;
I know I'm not the only one who can't believe it's already August so I'm not even gonna say it! But what I will say is: I can't believe this pandemic has been going on for about 4-5 months in the US now and we're still nowhere near getting better. If anything we're getting worse and that's insane. But then I run my weekly errands and I see WHY we're getting worse.
Everything is bigger in Texas.
Even the bullshit.
For the first time in ever I managed to wait until the end of July to start Fall. I usually start mid July but I really want to get the Spring/Summer content I missed out on out of the way before I go on full Fall mode. I know it doesn't matter in reality but I just like things to be in chronological order. So let's hope I get all of that other stuff up before August is over, yeah?
It's mostly for me and my archive purposes tbh.
Things I hope to get done in August;
Why yes, this was meant to be a monthly goals post but uh, I tend to talk too much. I wish there was a check list option for bullet points. Come on Blogspot it's 2020!
I can't believe it's 2019... already.
But then again how many of us are saying that this week?!
Every year for the last few years I've done {onelittleword} and for the last 2 years Bubba has chosen my word for me — this year he picked L E A R N as my word for 2019.
As new parents (I can't believe she'll be here in a few months! It's so crazy to think about!) this year we're going to do a lot of learning and I'm determined to not be one of those parents who let their newborn change their life as drastically as everyone says they will.
I've never been friends with the concept of sleep; to be honest I've probably gotten more sleep since BEING pregnant, despite all the discomforts than I've gotten naturally since 2004. Like my biggest excitement is the ability to fall asleep at night WITHOUT sleeping aids as I've been heavily dependent on them to get me to sleep since 2004. Me and sleep just haven't gotten along in a really long time.
In addition to being new parents I really want to get back into learning in general. I still need to learn the rest of French and I want to start learning Spanish. I want to relearn the social media world as well as how to make the most out of my blogging and getting back into graphic design. I want to learn how to bake. How to cook better meals. How to be a better version of myself.
There's much power in knowledge and I feel like the last few years I've been in a haze of just winging things; I want to go back to being that determined person with goals and intention.
I love Tulips.
I'd love if I could afford them right now too, but since I can't. Picture taking will have to do.
It's five days into the new month. Five D A Y S and bills are already fucking me. Ya'll I'm so tired of paying bills. Like it's not even funny how tired I am! I guess that falls back to me and past me and all the dumb shit past me was doing but then again I'm extra mad at past me for not telling those other dudes who were using me to get they own shit!
It's my birth month and I'm never excited about my birthday. I mean I was pretty excited last year since Bubba was spending the week with me at Disney World but generally speaking, I'm never really excited.
I can't do my usual traditions cause I'm not in Florida anymore. Also Bubba started a new job (which I'm really happy about) but he's working on my birthday. I'm trying to be somewhat not a poopy pants about it but let's be real, after I turned 25 without a BA in sight I was just like LORT ANOTHER YEAR OLDER. ANOTHER YEAR FAILED.
And that's definitely NOT the way you should be viewing life.
Granted there's nothing exciting about turning 33, still trying to rebuild your shit and yourself and thinking godammit I should get off FB with all these people and their careers and vacations. Which is why I'm never really on FB anymore. I post what I need to post, stalk who I need to stalk and get off!
This blog post wasn't suppose to be about me, it was suppose to be about my goals for April.
⇢ Read 3 books (and not on the last day of the month)
⇢ Blog more // I know shit can be hard but girl it's your release SO QUIT IT
⇢ EXPLORE more, spend LESS
⇢ Apartment hunting
⇢ Tidy room & closet / purge shit you really don't need
⇢ Sort digital stuff / back up laptop (since it's been like years since you did)
⇢ Get RDM and AST to 60 on FFXIV
⇢ Find something that calms you
⇢ Practice better time management
⇢ Catch up on reviews that need to be written
⇢ Celebrate your birthday... the best you can
I know Bubba puts a lot of effort into everything. And I know it might be killing him that he can't go all out on the day of my birthday this year and that the only thing I asked for was food adventures but I guess when you get older the experiences matter more than getting things. And normally I go on vacation for my birthday --- which I was excited moving closer to the West Coast cause I really wanted to celebrate my birthday in Vegas & Disneyland like I use to when I lived in CA 7 years ago but that didn't work out.
So this year I hope I find a new birthday tradition and I hope I find some enlightenment or motivation to get up and do something MORE. I mean I always want to do more but it's actually doing it lately that's the problem (which was never a problem before, so I'm confused as to why it is now).
So here's to April; my personal restart button.
I still can't believe how fast 2017 had just zipped by! Is this a sign of getting old?! Years just pass you by? It's almost kinda scary!
It's also been a whole week and let me tell you! I'm so over all these cramps and all this physical pain right now!
This year Bubba picked my {onelittleword} again and this year he picked [ C R E A T E ].
This is going to be interesting!
So the rule is once (or once every two) a week I have to create something. I haven't really put much thought into just what I want to create yet but there are a few things that have been on my yearly goals list for a few years now, like... making marshmallows, crafting a plushie, crafting a beanie, creating a mood board. And I'm sure there's maybe 3 other ones but I can't remember them right now.
So this year will be the year I finally tackle these things.
In addition to that I also have a few other goals I'd like to attempt:
⇢ Attempt to make Filipino dishes
⇢ Attempt to bake something off my Pinterest board once a month
⇢ Work on photography/**food styling photography**
⇢ Get more into bookstagram
⇢ Practice better beauty/lifestyle flat lays
⇢ USE A REAL CAMERA MORE
⇢ Read 36 books
⇢ Meditate/Yoga
⇢ Revamp blogs
⇢ Purge everything that doesn't serve me
⇢ Reorganize kitchen
There were others but again I can't really think of them right now. Bubba also has a goals list of this own:
--- Catch up/pay student loans
--- Finish Batman, Overwatch & DBZ shelves
--- Get one new outfit a month for Hazel and I
--- Watch a movie every other week
--- Finish Autumn's book
--- Play a new game every 2 months
--- Go on at least 1 trip this year
--- Build credit
There's a lot of things we want to see and do and accomplish this year and we're excited to see where this year will take us and what adventures we'll find along the way!
I'm so thankful for his uplifting attitude and his never ending happy vibe, I don't know how long I would had been sitting in my dark hole if he wasn't here to offer the support and happiness to remind me that life needs to keep moving forward even if we're hurting or even if we've suffering, it doesn't mean you have to stick yourself in a dark box. You can still grieve and you can still mourn while still planning to make the most out of your time and yourself.
So here's to 2018 and the adventures that are waiting for us ✨.
Holy crap where did the YEAR GO?!
I can't believe it's already DECEMBER!
I also can't believe how long I've actually been away from blogging; I have no real excuse either. Same goes for why I haven't been gaming. I don't know to be completely honest. I feel like days just zip by.
I had plans to do vlogmas (as I do every year) and blogmas this year both of just... didn't really happen. I mean jumping in on the 6th day is better than just NOT jumping in... right?!
I had hoped to be more prepared for Christmasy and Winter videos and blog posts and I've come to realize... my productivity and my drive to be the awesome blogger I know I CAN be just isn't there anymore! I don't know how or why... I do know I had hoped to revamp my social media once I moved and I was so stressed out with how the thing with the movers (I still need to write about) and everything had turned out that I just felt so defeated.
I think that's the problem with anxiety and seasonal depression --- is fighting through that epic defeated feeling in order to get the things done that you want done. And some days can just feel so endless and dark. AND THAT'S OKAY. I'm not gonna beat myself up for it anymore. I didn't FAIL at anything this month, everything is still fine. There's still time.
Even if I am battling a cold and all I wanna do is sleep --- this weekend in particular is going to be devoted to catching up on blogging, taking product shots, vlogging as much of my boring life as I can to put up a video on Sunday and sleeping. Cause I mean, I need sleep.
I don't have very many goals for myself this month and I DON'T WANT goals for myself this month really but I do have a few things I want to make sure is done before this year is over ---
- Figure out a direction for my blog and social media
- Come up with my [ onelittleword ] for 2018
- Come up with a SHORT list of SPECIFIC additional resolutions for 2018
- Research remote control jobs
- GO TO THE DAMN DOCTOR
- Upgrade my glasses (or early next year)
- Get back into meditation
- Get back into night time routine yoga
- Get back into Duolingo
- Get back into making healthier eating choices
- (Basically get back into the mentally healthy plan on things I fell off on)
- TIDY THE APARTMENT
- PUT THE SHIT AWAY
- Go into 2018 a little more ORGANIZED and TIDY
- Read as many books as you can
- Take holiday photos
- Figure out what to bake for Christmas Eve
That kinda seems like a lot but some of them can be clumped together/are things I do together. My anxiety and OCD have been nagging the hell outta me for weeks and it's getting hard to cope with. Things are a little stressful right now but nothing too bad if I'm being honest with myself so I'm confused as to why my anxiety and OCD have been acting up. I've been skipping bubble baths as well in hopes to get to bed earlier/giving myself time to read but I've just been so unmotivated which stinks cause it's December! I feel like I should be inspired like crazy!
Sigh, I guess you can't have everything.
One step and one day at a time.
What are some of your goals this month or goals before the year ends?
It's really no secret that I SUCK AT GOALS this year.
BUT that won't stop me from making them! Cause at SOME POINT on this journey I'll get my driven, busy, GET EVERYTHING DONE --- TODAY attitude back. And until then, the most I can do is give myself something to encourage myself to get up and make a difference.
⇢ Clean out fridge
⇢ Sort kitchen
⇢ Put up Fall stuff
⇢ Organize closet
⇢ Organize bedroom (more)
⇢ Properly re-set up zen corner
⇢ Mop living room
⇢ Exchange unwanted B&BW Fall scents/products
⇢ Do returns/exchanges for Kohls, Macys, etc...
⇢ Work on buying Christmas gifts
⇢ BAKE SOMETHING
⇢ Finish October TBR (FINISH WINTER FOR THE LOVE OF GOD)
⇢ Prep Christmas/Dec posts/videos
⇢ Work on NaNoWriMo
⇢ Try 3 new places
I'm not going to overachieve and try to do things I know probably won't happen but instead do things that SHOULD be happening REGARDLESS that I know my OCD will find reasons to NOT do.
I can't believe how fast Sept and Oct flew by and that I technically have to put up my Halloween/Fall stuff now!
I wish I could blog more about my feelings or my day. I don't know what stops me all the time... it use to be my jam! And it's not like this blog has any particular purpose besides me recording my life. I noticed I stopped blogging on hazearella because I guess I've outgrown the blogger layout. I wish it was on Wordpress but I don't want to go through the headache of switching everything over --- especially the domain. I'm thinking of starting over with a new name, I'm just not sure what! The pressures of Instagram can be very influencing though, I'll admit that. And the fear of starting over completely is scary AND THIS IS WHY I DONT HAVE A SUCCESSFUL BLOG OR CHANNEL CAUSE I KEEP STARTING OVER! Even though I don't have THAT many followers on that blog itself. SIGH. I don't know.
But here's to hopefully a month of catching up, finishing up and getting ready for Christmas and a brand new year.
In the month of March I posted 7 posts; which isn't bad. It's certainly more than usual but I feel like I can do a little better.
It's my birthday month \o/
And we're halfway through the beginning of the year. This time of year kinda always sort of stresses me out since I move every July which means I need to get started on purging and getting things tidy and together. I say this every year and I never really do it then I get mad at myself for all the shit I have to pack when I move. I don't even have that much stuff, it's just all random.... stuff. Like how does someone end up with so much stuff?! I've been here in Florida for 5 years now and SO much has happened and changed and just... it's just been so much. I guess the amount of stuff I've gathered kind of reflects that to a point, yeah?
As for goals, I'm not really sure what I hope to accomplish this month... I haven't really thought of it either.
- Post 2 videos a weekThat would equal up to 8 videos. I'm taking a vacation for my birthday so I'm hoping that I'll vlog at least some of it! I've been awful about vlogging lately and I'm not sure why. Or how. As much as I'm use to or want my life to be out there, I also don't. I don't know how else to explain it but as someone like me, it's freakin weird. I've always wanted to be a YouTuber since I started posting videos in 2009 but it's always been an on and off thing. I'm hoping for the day it'll just be on.
- Enjoy the vacationEnjoy everything that this vacation has to offer. Enjoy and take in all the happiness and "yoooooooo" moments that Penny will do, Play. Laugh. Don't be so caught up in stress or time or bills or life or tomorrow or anxiety. Be you. Be Zel again, if at least for just a week.
- ReadBecause this always has to be written down.
- Drink more waterEspecially since most of this vacation is going to take place outdoors, drink. more. water. Though I'm sure Penny will be reminding you.
- Start purgingClothes. Papers. Stuff. Makeup. Whatever! Anything that doesn't hold enough of a feeling or whatever, get rid of it!
- Stop buying so much stuff you don't needWe were off to a good start in March due to saving up for the trip, LET'S KEEP THAT GOING.
- Clean your roomThis should had been a March goal, shit.
- GET OUT MOREStaying home is nice and all, but 3 weeks straight? Girl get some damn air.
- Burn 8 candlesAmbitious? Yes. Doable? Totally.
- Reacess food blogBecause what the fuck, I thought we did this already and nope. Nope. NOPE. Locked out again!
- Get gathering mentorshipBecause you're so damn close anyway.
- Figure out things for the moveI understand you hate it and shit, but it's gotta be done!
And the usual --- post more blog posts, post 2-3 times on Instagram. Blah blah blah. BLAHHH.
DON'T LET ME DOWN APRIL!
credit: google images
Third month into the year and.... I feel like I haven't really accomplished much. Ever feel like your life is just going at SUCH A SLOW PACE? Yeah, I don't know what my end game is or what I'm looking for in life I just know it's going so slowly. Yeah, that doesn't make sense. Roll with me here.
February was such a shit month that it makes me almost not want to even bother with goals this month... almost.
Maybe instead I'll try to keep things simple.
- Find an apartment
This one is kind of important for various reasons. I'm so afraid I won't find a place I like and it's stressing me out! But even if I don't, I'm sure I'll figure something out... - Drink more water
This is one Penny has been getting on to me about a lot lately. The stress from recently has been making me sick and giving me headaches so I can see why he's so worried. - Make videos
Notice I didn't say "vlog" this time, though I do want to vlog more as well... but I really do need to make more videos, period. - Post 2-3 times a day on Instagram
I've been trying to (as always) up my followers (if you'd like to follow me you can do so here #shamelessplug) and I'm finding posting throughout the day helps... kinda. - Meditate
Because I literally need to do start doing this again. - KEEP READING
Don't stop... believing... HOLD ON TO THAT FEELING. - Cancel subscription boxes
Because let's be real Hazel, you don't need all of those. - Pay more attention to Penny
Because we get that stress and shit gets in the way but that doesn't mean the poor guy has to be second in line to social media and thangs. Just... give him your undivided attention sometimes, yeah? - Blog more
Stop letting stress and dumb people/situations stop you from doing you. You've got reviews to write, things to say, anger to let out! Blog it out! - Put more of ME in my blog posts, videos and social media
I'm always scared of letting ME show too much. Like you have to be this type of blogger for people to like you and this is something I've struggled with since I started YouTubeing in 2009. But if I'm not ME on my own platforms then... who am I? People will love me or not like me regardless, it's better to be not liked for who I completely am than liked for someone I'm not. - DO. SOMETHING. WITH. YOUR. HAIR. AND. FACE
Really. I usually throw my hair in a bun when I wake up and bum around which is fine, but how can I FEEL good if I don't LOOK good? Yeah I stole that from Penny, though he doesn't say that much anymore. - Prep for Easter/Spring posts and videos
Because things like this seem to always get away from you... plan these things ahead of time.
So here's to March!
Can we talk about how it's the second month of the year already?
I'm creeping up closer to seeing Penny again and I swear I just saw him but no, that was the beginning of December! I feel like this stretch of time went by SO MUCH FASTER than the last time. Crazy how that works!
I use to write monthly goals and sometimes they would help. Other times I would completely forget about them. I'm trying to be more realistic this year so I haven't decided if I'll still be doing monthly goals. Maybe on some months when I really want to accomplish/get things done that month.
With that said; I can't think of anything I REALLY want to accomplish in February beyond what I'm hoping with the goals for this year, you know?
So let's just go with a few notes to make about this month instead.
>> I'll be apartment hunting this month (because it's never too early to start; but the whole process is already stressing me out --- gah)
>> I'm really hoping I get my Weaver and Botnist on FFXIV to 60 by the end of the month
>> I'm really hoping to START leveling a tank class on FFXIV --- but I don't have high hopes for it
>> I'm hoping to read 3-4 books this month (I only read 2 last month so I'm "one behind")
>> I'm really hoping to finish Scarlet this month
>> I'm excited to see what my favorite things this month will be
>> That said, I'm excited to see what new things I'll find and discover this month
>> I'm excited to see what products/things I'll finish this month too
>> Wait, if there's only 28 days does that mean that Penny and I don't have a monthaversary this month since there's no 30th? D:
>> I'm HOPING I'll be able to put out videos on my YouTube channel twice a week this month
>> I'm also hoping that I'll remember to vlog while I'm out of state this time too
>> I'm hoping to get a little more tidy this month since I'm sure moving month is going to come up quick
Then there's a few personal goals.
But also, I started playing with my Sony WX300 last month and I've been trying to learn how to use it a bit more since I probably won't be seeing my Canon S90 any time soon. I'm actually really enjoying learning more about this camera and how it works. So here's to hoping I can take more and better product shots \o/.
What are some of your goals for this month?
Let's try to break this down a little more... and also, I really wanted to use this image.
Hazearella was created as a place for me to be.... me. I ditched my other blog fairytale lifestyle after realizing my life was not a fairytale (anymore) and that my time working at Disney came to an end. So, I figured why not make a blog more me based? And since launching Hazearella, I haven't really done that. I've still confined myself to not growing at all (and I just realized it says 2015 on the image and not 2016... goddammit whatever) and not really displaying who I am.
So in 2017 let's try and change that. Yeah?
B L O G G I N G G O A L S
- Post at least 3 times a week
- Learn more about SEO
- Learn more about social media
- Be more active on my social media
- Try to incorporate more blog posts about me
- Take more quality photos
- Post more videos on YouTube
P E R S O N A L G O A L S
- Read 36 books
- Learn more French
- Incorporate meditation back into my life
- Incorporate more Hygge into my life
- Discover more favorites
- Discover 5 new restaurants
- Get back into the habit of making lists
F F X I V G O A L S
- Get WHM, BLM and a tank class to 60
- Get Mining and Fishing to 60
- Get Weaver and Culinary to 60
- Clear out retainers
- Unlock all the flying locations
- Finish MSQ
There was something else I wanted to add to the list and I forgot what it was... drat. I know I'll add to this more when I think of more goals I hope to accomplish.
I know I want to revamp the look of my instagram feed for both Hazearella and Readarella. It's just hard to do that sometimes when you're not 100% sure of what you want your feed to look like. I guess I should go for a more emotional theme than a visual one and quit stressing myself out.
There are a handful of exciting things I have planned for this year that I'm hoping are going to happen and if they do I will definitely be filming and picture taking the hell out of them.
My main hope for this year is for me to GROW. And for me to be a step closer to figuring things out. To find more joy and more peace of mind and to get back to the place I was before the big ball of depressing shit had happened.
So here's hoping I have more to say in 2017.
It's that time of the year again...
Where we talk about #onelittleword.
This year my word is [ g r o w ].
I personally didn't pick this word, Penny picked it for me, but it was around the type of word I was looking for. And I think it fits pretty perfectly for what I hope to accomplish this year.
The last two years have been... a mess. A very very huge and complicated mess and I'm still trying to pick up the pieces and clean it up but it's going to take time --- a lot of time. And with that I can't make any huge life changes until then... which is really where the biggest struggle lies. I'm all about those big life changes (I am an Aries after all)!
But I'm going to give myself time this year. And patience. And I'm going to try to do better with trusting the process instead of being the impatient little girl I am fully capable of being 90% of the time.
I don't really have very many goals for this year... at least I haven't really thought of any. I suppose I'm trying to take a more realistic look at what I hope to accomplish this next year and nothing is coming to mind... for the first time ever. It's kinda relieving and a little sad.
- Read 36 books
- Blog more
- Take more pictures
- Be more organized
- Find more joy
- Try 5 new restaurants
- Learn more French
- Work on fixing everything --- one thing at a time
I'm sure as the year goes on I'll come up with more goals but for now, let's try and keep it as simple as we can.
I'm always so curious to look back and know what my best of was for the year and I'm sad to say that 2016 didn't really have a lot of when it came to that. My best nine wasn't that impressive either which was sad.
So here's to making more memories, finding more favorites and discovering more joys in 2017!
N O V E M B E R G O A L S
- Do NaNoWriMo (I don't have a word count goal just yet... though I suppose aiming for 50k wouldn't be a bad idea, right?)
- Keep up with homework
- Craft Penny's gift
- Craft Penny's backup gift
- Post 2 blog posts a week
- Continue to attempt to finish that October reading list
- Set up for Christmas
- Pack for trip
- Organize bedroom/bathroom
- Save money
- Work on business stuff
- Organize living room --- foreal
Pretty much things I've been trying to accomplish all year but hey, it's whatever. Audrey pointed out you're 30% more likely to finish something if it's written down --- I like those odds.
November is typically a really busy month for me between NaNoWriMo, getting ready for Christmas and school. Add prepping for a trip, starting a business and work and well... things are about to get even MORE busy. But that's why I love (and hate) November because it IS busy and knowing me, I live for busy.
Also I feel like that photo is slightly slanted, but it just might be me.
What are your goals this November?
Instead of making a huge list of resolutions I'm probably not even going to complete, I decided to do #onelittleword again this year. Last year I did [ rediscover ] and I think I did fairly well with it. This years word took a little bit more time and it was hard to pick from my list of words of things I felt were important to me this time around.
So this year I decided on the word...
F O C U S
Last year I had trouble focusing on things. I let small things get in the way of my happiness, of my goals, of my day. Things that would had been hard to push passed but things I knew I had to push passed, eventually. Granted it took awhile to build up to it and I know that's part of the recovery process --- as much as it sucks.
So this year, though the burden has been lifted just a little bit, I thought I would try my hand at getting a little bit more focused. I've been spending a lot of time building my following on Twitter and Instagram, trying to learn as much as I can about SEO, I've started playing with water colors and playing with adult coloring books (which I am loving!) which has given me the ability to play with different types of shading with gel pens, coloring pens, pastels and coloring pencils. I'm looking into starting my softies project as well as playing with the idea of teaching myself how to crochet --- again. I tried many years ago and became frustrated with it because I couldn't crochet a straight line lol. Silly reason to quit but it happened. I'm willing to give it another try as well as knitting. I hear they both can be very calming and therapeutic (is it possible to do it in a bubble bath? would that be weird?). Late last year I also wanted to get into candle and bath bomb making and I know Nick wanted to attempt Macarons.
That's loads enough as it is with things we want to pursue and work on. Not to mention that I'm going back to school full time to complete the BA I had started prior to earning my certif in social media. I've changed a few of my classes in the program though and I think I'll be very happy with the degree when I'm done. I'm just excited to start again already! It's something that is very familiar to me so I have no doubts I will pick it up quickly.
Granted I don't expect to keep my focus at all times. But I am going to try to keep my focus as much as I can this year and try to stay on task with completing the things I need to complete and stop letting the little things get to me so much.
So here's to 2016. To starting over. To hopefully being in a better place at the end of this year than I was in the previous year.
Are you doing #onelittleword too? What word did you choose? And if not what are your goals for 2016?
Lately I've been a little bit obsessed with bubble baths. By little, I mean I've been taking them almost every single day and I've gone through about 3 bottles of Bath & Body Works Bubble Baths. The Stress Relief is actually watered down, but it still bubbles up and THAT is the important part. The Peppermint Twist candle isn't melting the right way so the scent throw is pretty much non existent. Which is... kinda depressing. I relax better with Twisted Peppermint filling up the room. Makes me fuzzy and drowsy.
Emotion by Destiny's Child came on Amazon Prime and wow, it brought me back to high school and my first huge break up. When I thought the world was legit ending. Also, I'm out of Photoshop so I edited this on my phone and I don't know if I like how it turned out.
I'm in the process of re-branding my blog... and figuring out exactly what that means in the process. I just know that I'm feeling a bit under the weather and uninspired lately. It might be this gloomy weather today or the fact that this is the third holiday season I won't see my family. That really puts a drain on things. I'm wondering how my mom dealt with years of not being able to spend the holidays back home with her family because three years is hard.
After much debate, I did end up picking up Animal Crossing: Amiibo Festival AND Mabel. Which is all kinds of exciting. I ordered Tom Nook from a third party site and just got an email about him being up on Amazon so I think I'm going to cancel my order with the other site and just wait for him to be shipped by Amazon since it's a total 2 day shipping versus... who even knows. I didn't get the 3 pack because I'm not too fond of the characters in it though I probably should had since.. it's still all Animal Crossing. Went home and played it only to have Nick's younger sister ruin it for me by complaining about how boring the dumb the game was. Uhm, let me enjoy my moment, will you? So I was pretty much in a bad mood the rest of last night. Hoping to get some time in today to play some. Maybe have a better experience in the process.
I have a few goals I'm hoping to accomplish this week as well:
- Get homework done before Sunday
- Prep for holiday decorations
- Finish 2 books
- Work on networking and rebranding
- Start meditating again
- Film October Favorites video
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